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Chapter 37

Xiumin            

"I love her."

I really do love Truc ever since I first saw her but now I messed things up bad, for us. I should of confessed like Yoongi said, I should of never jump to conclusions and I should never have played with someone's feeling's.

"Well then, what are you going to do?" Hoseok says. I don't know what I should do. Should I break up with Mary first? Or should I confront Truc and try to be friends again?

I'm about to start talking until I hear someone running and slamming the front door of Truc's house. I turn to see if Hoseok is still there and he is, with wide eyes. Does that mean Truc or Lynh heard me? I hope it wasn't Truc.

"I should go visit her, shouldn't I?" I say whilst Hoseok nods. He pats me on the shoulder and gives me a stern look.

"Don't mess up this time," Hoseok says and leaves.

I stay in front of her house and decide whether or not I should knock on her door. Different thoughts go through my head and each one gives me a new problem. She could hate me forever because of the pain I've caused her or she could accept it but then I would have to deal with Mary.

I'll just do what Yoongi said and just go for it because I only had one chance but now a new door has opened for me. It will shut on me quickly if I don't do this now. I take a deep breath and open the gate and knock on her front door. I step a few steps back so I wouldn't be too close to the door.

Moments after, the door slowly opens, revealing Truc who's trying to avoid my eyes.

"H-hi," I say and she just smiles.

"What are you doing here?" Truc says and I scratch the back of my neck.

"Truc, I know you heard what I said earlier," I say and she stays silent.

"Let's talk about this outside," she finally says and walks out the house.

"You heard what I said, right?" I say again and she slightly nods.

"I want you to know that I was telling the truth," I say and she looks up at me. Her eyebrows were slightly furrowed and she bit her lip. I took a few steps closer to her and held her hand. She slightly flinched at the skin ship and looked up at me with wide eyes.

"What are you doing, you have a girlfriend," she says and forcefully pulls her hand away but I quickly grab her wrist.

"Please let me explain everything," I say.

"I think I heard most of it," she says and I sigh. I don't know what to say. How should I start this?

"Truc ever since I first saw you, I thought you were...pretty cute," I say. Xiumin why are you being so awkward? "Once we became friends, I couldn't be any happier but you made me fall for you so easily. Your smile made my heart flutter and as a 10 year old, I didn't understand what I was feeling. All I knew was that if you were sad, I would want to be the one who brought a smile back to your face. I would be your prince charming."

"I didn't want any other guys around you but me. So when I saw you getting closer to Hoseok, I got kind of jealous. Actually not kind of, I was totally jealous. I was so jealous that I thought your sister was you and I dated a girl that I only just met," I say with a bit of embarrassment. I feel so ashamed of myself right now.

"Xiumin, I like you too," she starts to say and I swear my heart skipped a beat. Did she really say that? "But you need to sort things out with Mary."

Back to square one. What do I do about Mary? What should I say to her? How can I say it the nicest way possible? I don't think there is a way.

"I will sort things out with Mary and end it because I can't play with her feelings anymore. I can't do that to her and I feel terrible for doing it. Truc once that's over, would you go out with me?" I say with a bit of hope.

"I don't know Xiumin. So much has happened and I need to know where I am, right now. I need some time for things to settle," she says and I feel slightly disappointed but I understand. She just needs time. Time is the only thing I can give to her for all the stuff I've done to her.

She suddenly starts to tear up and I begin to feel worried. Why is she crying so suddenly? Did I say something wrong? But I haven't said anything.

"Xiumin, you heard about my grandma, right?" She says and I nod. I pull her into a hug and she just sobs into my chest.

"I miss her so much," she says and I hold her tighter. I can't imagine how she's feeling right now but I know what it feels like to lose someone important to you.

My dad had left my mum and me, once I was born which made things hard for my mum. I don't usually ask my mum about him but all she ever told me was that he moved out of the country and remarried. I want to think of my dad as a terrible person but I can't because my mum told me such good stories about him. I don't get how she can forgive him so easily.

I thought I could get to meet him so I asked mum but she said no immediately. After some time trying to convince her, she finally gave in and we went out to look for him. She called some of his old friends and they told us he had died. He told us that that he was doing constructive work in the mines and there was an earthquake and the building fell on him.

My mum and I were very shocked from the news and we were definitely upset. I never got to meet my father. My mum would cry every night ever since that day for almost 6 months before she got back to normal but she wasn't same.

I felt bad that I made my mum look for him even after she refused to do so. I never saw her so sad before and it breaks my heart that someone who everyone loved, left my mum because he thought he wasn't ready for a family. I swore I never would do that again to my mum and tried to be the best son for her.

"Xiumin, you should go home now. It's late and we have school tomorrow and not to mention exams as well," she says and whilst pulling away from me. She wipes her eyes and I give her a small smile. She opens the door and stands by the door whilst watching me walk away.

"I love you," I say and she looks a bit flustered which I found adorable.

"I-I love you too."