complicated ♡ k.ms

Chapter 34

Truc           

I woke up the next morning and hoping that I could sleep forever. My eyes were probably puffy from all the crying and my pillow was filled with tear stains. After a while, I finally got myself out of bed and went to wash up. As I assumed, my eyes were puffy and slightly red. My hair was everywhere and my cheeks stung like hell.

I still couldn't believe what had happened last night. I just wished everything was a nightmare and that I would wake up tomorrow from this horrible dream. I still couldn't believe my grandma was gone. I didn't want to believe it. Lynh must feel worse than me though. Wait. Lynh! I wondered if she got home safely last night.

I quickly went out the bathroom and to her room. Once I opened the door, I was shocked to see her not there. She couldn't have woken up already. Her room didn't smell like alcohol either. I went around the house looking for her but unfortunately she wasn't there. My parents had already left the house for work and I was left alone in the house. How could my parents work at a time like this though?

I sat on my bed and debated whether or not to call Hoseok about this situation. He's Lynh's boyfriend so he has the right to know but I don't want to worry him either. But what if she's with him? Maybe she needed comfort from someone who loved her differently from how I do. I dialled his number and hoped that he would pick up. I suddenly hear someone pick up the phone and I sigh in relief. I prayed for the best as I he started talking

"What is it?" He says and I can clearly tell that he just woke up but I didn't care. I just needed to know where Lynh was.

"Is my sister with you?" I say worriedly. Please be there. Please be there.

"Yeah. Don't worry. She's safe with me," he says and I sigh in relief. Thank God she's okay.

"I found her drunk and brought her to my place because she refused to go home," he says and I start to feel a bit disappointed. She went out to drink again and she refused to come home? Leaving me with my parents?  Was it because of me? I just wished I could be a better sister for her.

"You should go get ready for school," he suddenly says and I look at the time on the clock.

"Aren't you going to school?" I say with a confused tone. 

"I'll just miss out today. I'll take care of Lynh. Don't worry," he says and I start to feel bad. Why would he want to miss school out of all days? We should be able to deal with our problems without interfering others.

"Finals are coming. You should be studying. I'll come over and get Lynh and I'll take care of her," I say in a rush. 

"No. You need to study. Your sister would want that," he says and I nod my head. That's true but I wish i could make things better for her.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. Don't worry."

"I'm sorry about the trouble we've caused."

"It's okay. She's my first priority. Anyways go get ready for school. I should get going. Bye."

"Bye," I hang up the phone and start getting ready for school. I quickly look at the time and see that I still have enough time before the bus comes. I didn't really have an appetite so I decided not to eat.

I slowly walked to my bus stop and stopped in my tracks when I saw the same couple that made my blood boil. Could my day get any worse? My sister probably didn't think I was good enough for her and now I have to face the same couple again. I just stood in the back while waiting for the bus and hoped that time would go faster.

Heaven finally answered my prayers when I saw the bus come moments later. I hoped onto the bus and sat near the back, avoiding the couple who were a few steps ahead of me. I sat down and looked out the window and waited for the bus to go to school so that I could get this day over and done with.

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At lunchtime, I opened my locker door and a note slipped out and landed on the ground. The note looked like it was teared off a notebook and was quickly put into my locker. I picked it up and unfolded and read it. Once I took one glance at the writing, I instantly tell whose handwriting it was.

Meet me after school at the front gate.

-          Xiumin

I was shocked and confused to see his note. Why did he want to meet up with after all this time? Did he want to apologise? I started to feel a bit excited even though I knew I shouldn't. Why should I feel worked up over something odd? It might not be much anyways but I should give him another chance because doesn't everyone deserve a second chance.

****

After school, I went straight to the front gate of the school and waited for Xiumin. I rocked on my heels and toes and looked around waiting for him. If someone had walked past me, they would've thought I was a child waiting for her parents.

My hands were sweaty even though it was cold but I couldn't stop feeling nervous. I kept running different scenarios through my head, that I thought would happen and tried to stick to the positive ones. What if he really does just want to be friends with me again? Or maybe he just wants to me to wait out in the cold for no good reason? I shouldn't get my hopes up anyways.

I looked at my watch and began to feel worried that he won't come. It had already been 20 minutes and he was nowhere in sight. Maybe he really didn't want to meet up with me.

The cold was starting to get to me and I wrapped my coat tighter around me. Where is he? Is he not coming at all? Was this a joke all along? I could see my breath in the cold and regretted coming here. I shouldn't have come at all. This was such a stupid idea.

"Truc?" I suddenly hear a voice behind me and I quickly turn around, hoping it was Xiumin but I was again disappointed.

"Oh Baekhyun," I say with a hint of disappointment. "What are you doing here?"

"Me? I could say the same for you," he says with a chuckle.

"I was waiting here for someone but I guess he isn't coming," I say as I rub my hands together.

"If you're waiting for Xiumin, he already left with Mary," he says and I stop rubbing my hands together. He ditched me to go with her? Really? I can't believe I really fell for this. I'm so stupid.

"Oh, I-I wasn't. I was waiting for my mum. Oh, there she is. I've got to go. Goodbye Baekhyun," I say quickly and rush away from him. I hear him chuckle and I can't help but feel any more embarrassed than I already am.

I start walking home, annoyed with everything going on. My blood was boiling but I couldn't help but cry. Everything was so frustrating and I couldn't hold my emotions in any longer. I cried like I had cried last night and I could feel my tears become hot to cold after a few seconds in the cold wind. 

Everything was too much. I was already stressed about school, my grandma not being here with me and my best friend who chose to no longer be there to comfort me at my worst. Maybe second chances aren't meant to be given but deserved or maybe he just isn't meant to get one and after all, wasn't he not worth my heart anyways?