I don't think I can take much more. I have no energy and the lack of sleep and food has made me sick. There's this constant bad feeling in my chest and I just want it gone. Lately I've realized I'm not thinking about the future, instead I'm feeling like I'm running out of time. I look at pictures of me, I imagine that I am dead and I think "that poor girl." It takes me a moment to register that that girl is actually me and I have had a life and a childhood. It scares me so much when I think about the fact that I'm a person. I don't feel like one. I feel like I don't exist sometimes, like I'm just watching a movie. I've watched enough, now I'm bored.
I really like the quote above. Just thought I'd say this.
