I hope you know by now that I deeply fear change. I mean, I can barley cope with a schedule change. I have reoccurring nightmares of people leaving me. It's something I always think about. It's always on my mind and it's always making me hold back. I know that people will come and go in my life, but it fucking terrifies me. It keeps me up at night, and it disturbs the little sleep I do get. I can't deal with the fact that I'm going to be left behind by the people I love. They will all move on, but I'll be sitting here still. Just clinging on to my already fading memories.
