My thoughts are spinning a million miles an hour and my stomach aches from the butterflies. I can't stop thinking about the things I did wrong and what I could have done instead. I want to be unconscious so I don't have to deal with this headache. Are your feelings supposed to make you physically ill? I don't know what to do. What is wrong with me? Why can't I fix things? Could I fix things if I tried? Should I try? Do I even want to try? Maybe it's better if I am alone where I can't hurt anyone but myself. I'm just so tired. I want to be fixed. I want to be a new person.