Drowse - First Season - Finished

Chapter 17 - Please stop playing with the feelings of Bri and Rog

POV Helena

Twenty of December. Presentation at the Queen's Marquee tonight. I am reunited with my friends while the boys are backstage, getting ready to take the stage soon. My friends and I are in the front ranks. I have a camera. I want to take a lot of pictures tonight. The kiss that Rog and I exchanged in his car a few days ago, is still in my heart and in my thoughts. But when I saw Bri today, arriving with the boys, my heart quickened. Is it possible for a person to fall in love with two people at the same time? For this is my case. I'm in love with Roger and Bri and I do not know who to choose. In fact, I did not want to get involved with either, but it's getting harder and harder to hide a feeling as strong as love. I'm afraid to choose one and hurt the other. I do not want to hurt them ever. In fact, I once hurt Rog once for omitting that Jill was cheating on him. Regretting myself to this day that I did not tell him about it at first, it's a good thing he forgave me. And now I do not want to hurt you any more. I promised it to him and I will have to comply. I think if I hurt Roger again, he'll never forgive me again.

Shortly afterwards the boys entered the stage and were applauded. I took lots of pictures of them. Freddie had full control on the stage, singing divinely, holding the pedestal. Sometimes he would introduce some songs to the piano. Freddie is also an excellent pianist. John is the most timid of the band. He plays his bass, masterfully, quietly, not wanting the spotlight for him. Meanwhile, Bri bangs on his guitar solos. The guitar just needs to talk. Bri looked at me a few times and smiled. Her beautiful smile melted all over me. Rog in the background, he played drums exceptionally, with all the confidence of the world, mastery. He was playing shirtless, showing off his belly. Rog is not the kind of strong man. He's skinny, a skinny little guy. I watched him too and he would look at me from time to time and smile and smile back at me. Clare, who was next to me, would perceive everything and analyze in silence.

At the end of the presentation, they were much applauded by everyone and some groupies were asking for photos and autographs for them. The girls were missing out on taking pictures of Bri and especially Roger. I watched the whole thing irritated. The girls looked at me and raised their eyebrows.

"Helena, please control your jealousy," Vanessa said, smiling.

- Calm down friend. Bri and Rog are yours, on your property, "Sarah said, smiling at the situation.

"They're not my property." I'm not the girlfriend of any of them, just jealous of my friend, "she said irritably.

"You're not the girlfriend of either of us because you do not want to," Mary laughed. "You're both in love with you." They demonstrate this daily.

"Mary's right, Helena. You are not the girlfriend of some of them because you do not want to. I imagine the dilemma in your heart to know who to choose, "Veronica said." I'm going to ask God to help you choose between Bri and Rog.

Clare was pensive, silent.

"Girls, I'm afraid I'll hurt them, so I will not be with either of them at all. - said categorically - I have to go over those confused feelings.

"I just hope I do not hurt you, Helena. Said Clare. "Please, my friend, do not hurt my brother again. Rog loves you so much. He was already hurt by you, because of Jill's bid.

"I know Clare, and remorse consumes me to this day. I'm afraid to hurt Rog again. I'm very careful about my attitudes, "he said.

"Do it, my friend," said Clare, smiling.

After the boys met the fans, we went to meet them and greeted each other. Then we went to their dressing rooms, waited for them to change clothes, to all go to a pub, to celebrate the performance that night.