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Chapter 28 - Cutting the Wrists / February 1974.

POV Roger

Monday...

February 25

On the twenty-eighth, the boys and I will travel for our tour of the UK. And the Queen II album will be released on March 8th. At that point, Freddie, Deacy and I are having a meeting with the EMI producer about the tour. Brian has not arrived yet.

- Later you will have a tour with Mott the Hoople in the United States of America - said a producer.

"It will be wonderful to tour the land of Uncle Sam. Said Freddie, smiling.

At this moment Brian enters the office and apologizes to everyone for the delay of almost an hour. Brian was always timely, never late. Something very serious happened. Tell yourself by your looks. He has red eyes as if he had cried a lot and around his eyes is swollen and dark, as if he had spent the night in the clear.

"Good morning, everyone, and sorry for the delay," Brian said, sitting down next to Freddie.

- Good morning, Brian. It's all right? I say this because it does not look very good. Is sick? Asked the producer?

"I'm sick, yes, physically and mentally, but that will not disturb the progress of the meeting," Bri said coldly. - Please, continue. Now I want to keep up with everything they're talking about.

I looked at Bri and his hair was disheveled, his face in deep sadness. He did not smile for a moment. And for the first time over the months I felt my heart sink to see the look of sadness of my former best friend. After the meeting was over and the music producer dismissed us, we all went to the EMI coffee shop for coffee. Bri was silent. Until Deacy asked:

"Bri, what happened to you being like this today?"

Bri looked at his coffee cup in silence. I was next to Deacy waiting for his response.

"Dear Bri, please tell us what happened." You're in deep sadness, "Freddie said.

"Helena broke up with me, she's done dating for ten months, I'm suffering a lot, that's it," Bri said, annoyed.

I looked at Brian in amazement, not knowing what to say.

"Bri, I'm sorry for all that's going on," Deacy commented. "It's not easy when we do not have the reciprocal love we love.

"Dear Bri, I'm sorry too," Freddie said thoughtfully. "But why Helen broke up with you?"

At that moment Brian looked at me and said coldly,

"Helena said she's in love with me, but in December, in the last two months, her heart has once again been in doubt if she really loves me. She said that her 50% heart is filled by me and the other 50% is filled by Roger. She's confused again between Roger and me.

At that moment Bri looked at me and I spit out all my coffee, which I was drinking. That's not possible.

"Helena still says that she feels remorse for Roger and I'm no longer friends, that she suffers from it, and that she also knows how much Roger and I suffered because we were not friends any more. Helena said she hurt Roger and me and that's why she does not deserve to be with any of us at the moment and she found a way to think who she wants in the future. She applied for the Miss London contest with more than 5,000 contestants and she was chosen from 60 candidates to participate in the grand finale of the contest in March. She wants to win the contest and play Miss England, "Brian said.

As Brian spoke, I was in shock. I can not believe Helena still feels anything for me, that she's still in that damn doubt. At that moment my heart raced, after all, I still have chances with Helena in the future, not now. But at the same time that I was happy, I'm sad because I'm seeing Brian sad. Although we are no longer friends, I worry about him, he's from the band and I did not like it because Helena also hurt Brian. She acted wrongly. And the anger consumed my body and took my being.