Drowse - First Season - Finished

Chapter 22 - Do not call me Brother, Brian / Maio1973.

POV Roger

After the great disappointment I had, I stop the car in front of a bar and ask for a drink. I have a beer, then I ask for tequila, vodka. I realize I'm getting very drunk. I stop drinking and light a cigarette.

"Hard night, young man?" Asked the bartender much older than me.

"Very difficult night." "Do you know why I'm like this?" Because of a woman. Once again I was deceived. I have no luck in love.

I smoke my cigarette and then pay for the drinks I have consumed. Then I get in my car and go to the apartment. Honestly, I do not know how I manage to drive, I'm completely drunk. I park the car anyway in the parking lot of the building and enter the apartment I share with Les. I go to my room and cry a lot more, but then I fall asleep.

On Sunday, I got up about one o'clock in the afternoon, with a lot of headache and thirst. I took a shower and then took a medicine for pain. Worse than my headache is my heart. I went into the kitchen and found Les, who was already having lunch.

- Good afternoon friend. I ordered Italian food for us, "he said. - There's lasagna in the oven and Greek rice.

- Good afternoon Les. I said taking the lasagna and the rice in the oven. "How was last night at Kensington Tavern?"

- Very good. Everyone had a good time, but they missed you. They missed their antics, jokes. Is everything okay, my friend? Asked Les.

"Yes, it's all right, Les, I was just a little headache yesterday, I was not cool. I was feeling pain in my body and I decided to go home, "he said thoughtfully.

"I know that's not what's hurting you, Rog," Les said, touching my shoulder. "But I will not insist you speak to me." When you're ready, you let me know.

I looked at Les, as he knows me well, too, it's been a few years of conviviality. I remained silent, just having lunch.

After I had lunch, I brushed my teeth and left the apartment, telling Les that I would take a ride in the city. I ask him if he wants to go. He thanked them, but said he would have a date with a work friend. I smiled at him and said we would see each other at night. I got in my car and left without destination, through London and stopped the car, everywhere Helena and I went, everywhere that Queen played and Helena was with me. I spent the whole afternoon strolling around. I stop the car in front of the Thames and see the sunset. I feel like crying again. I cry and I remember Brian and Helena's kiss. After the sun went down, I went back to the apartment. It was almost seven at night when the phone rang.

- Hello? I said in a weak voice.

"Rog, it's Helena, how are you?" I'm worried about you. She said into the phone and I smiled humorlessly.

Hi Helena. - I said unwillingly - I'm better. Do not worry about me.

"How can I not worry about you?" Said Helena. "Rog, you said you were in pain yesterday." What sorrows were these?

"Pain in the body, Helena. Pains in the heart. She said gloomily.

"What do you mean, heart pain?" Did you go to the doctor? Go to the doctor and see what it can be, "she said.

"The pain in my heart that I have had a doctor can cure, Helena. - said I do not want to talk to her - is Clare around?

"She is," Helena said, sighing. "Will not you talk to me, Rog?"

"Helena, I want to talk to my sister, have not you noticed that yet?" - said a little without patience - I'm already better okay? I will be fine.

"Okay," Helena said sadly.