FORGET ME NOT

Chapter Thirty-Four

TRISH

Being a girl has its own disadvantages. It's not that I'm not thankful for being blessed with body parts that boys doesn't have and being able to dress up but I can never deny the moments in my life that I wished I was a boy.

Girls have this very wild emotions that when we are hurt, we can do things that would make us regret. We make permanent decisions on temporary feelings. Honestly, we girls are so fund of making boys jealous that we thought would work so we could get their attention but it's the opposite that happens.

A girl, no matter how many times we deny it, we will always remember every detail, every moment, every piece of the memories boys left us. No matter how much we try to forget, it will always be there.

A boy, no matter how hard you make him feel special will always be discontented. There are things they want that we couldn't give. We'll never know what's inside their minds or their heart. We don't know if they're really serious but based on their words, we stupidly fall and treat them as if they're the king of our world. We think that it's forever and it's true but in the end, it never was. They will make us fall and when they got tired of us, they'll break our hearts in pieces like it was made out of glass. I'm not a man hater and definitely not a bitter one. I was hurt, thousands of times because of boys. Major damage or not, it still hurts but I need to stand up.

Books and movies give us high expectations about relationship and stuff but trust me, it's never like that. Our little fairy tales are not true. No boy is willing to be eaten by a dragon just to save you in that tower. No boy is going to save us from a poisoned apple. No boy would bother to wake us from our sleep. No boy would waste so much time finding the right shoe.

Admit it; we girls want a boyfriend that will give us their hoodie when we're cold. We want a boyfriend who will comfort us when we're down. We want a boyfriend who will kiss and hug us in front of his friends. We want a boyfriend who will go to our house at midnight just to surprise us on our birthday and tell us that he never wants to lose us. We want a boyfriend who will love us for who you are not because we are beautiful or hot. Societies fucked, you're lucky if it happens. We don't live in 70's anymore. Boys now a day are douche bags, dickheads and all they care about is sex. And girls on the other hand are too obsessed about being beautiful. They wanted to be accepted and loved. They want to be popular because in the modern world, boys pay attention to the lucky ones that was blessed in having a pretty face.

It's hard to wait for something we know might never happen; but it's even harder to give up when we know it's everything we want. Everybody wants happiness nobody wants pain but if you come to think, we can't have a rainbow without a little rain.

In this world, there is always going to be people who are better than you, so stop comparing yourself to others and just try to be the best you can be. Be yourself because an original is worth more than a copy.

I was cleaning my room when Aiden accidentally dialed my number. Hearing his low voice suddenly turned my night into something I couldn't forget. Though I could sense the loneliness, I was happy he called and asked me to come over. After my conversation with Aiden, I left the room and rushed to his dorm. Apparently, my room is just two floors above his.

I wasn't sure why he called me but he really sounded like he was completely messed up to the highest level. I thought he was about to cry so I immediately offered my helping hands.

He needs someone who will listen to him. He needs a friend. He needs me.

I know that not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see, the pain someone feels. But right now, I know that Aiden needs me as much as I need him. Not as a cousin, but as a friend who is willing to listen and understand.