Mistaken Scandal (Montero Series # 1 ) English Version Available on Hinovel

Chapter Thirty Five

Chapter Thirty Five

One lie can ruin a thousand truths...

--the goodvives. Co
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[Fia's POV]

HINDI ko napigilang muling mapa-iyak ng mapagmasdan ko ang sonogram film. The sonogram indicates that my baby was seven weeks and four days already. My baby looks like a toad but it has a heartbeat.Halo-halong emosyon ang naramdaman ko ng marinig ang tibok puso niya kanina. I was worried and scared but apart from those feelings, I was also relieved kasi healthy siya. Parang hindi parin ako makapaniwala that a growing life is inside my womb right now. Masaya rin pala ang pakiramdam. Kahit hindi pa siya napapanganak at kahit unexpected ang pagdating niya ay mahal ko na siya. I guess, any loving future mother feels the same way as I do.

Actually, I was so excited to do this ultrasound last week pero ngayon lang ako nagkapanahon. Nag leave kasi si Aya kaya naiwan sa akin ang steak house. Kayden let me handle the resto on my own in the meantime because he was too busy with his film and his upcoming projects.

I touched my tummy while I looked at the picture. Sana baby, you'll grow healthier. I have no other wish right now than having you healthy hanggang sa maisilang kita.

I dried the tears at the corners of my eyes. This pregnancy thing makes so twice much of a cry baby.

"So ngayon narealized mong mahal mo rin siya?" tanong ni Louise.

Bahagya akong napatango. "Hindi ko gustong tanggapin but I couldn't fight it either. The last time I remembered I was hurting for Elj, I thought I still love him."

"Yes, because you were consciously putting up the dreams that you and Elj build together. You are romanticizing everything. Unconsciously, mahal mo na si Kayden, ayaw lang tanggapin ng utak mo kasi hindi siya ang lalaking pinangarap mong makasama. He's not even close to your dream guy. Kung minsan, nabubulag tayo sa kung anumang gustong paniwalaan ng isip natin kahit ang totoo iba naman ang isinisigaw ng puso natin. And you know what? There is another thing that confuses your feelings for Elj. Guilt. You mistake love for guilt. You still think that you love him because you're guilty of leaving him few years ago. You felt responsible for his pain."

Napabuntong hininga ako.I guess, Louise was right. Nung nagkausap kami ni Elj sobra talaga akong nasaktan. I never thought that he hurt so bad because of me. Naroon parin naman ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya. He was my bestfriend. He was the first man to ever make me feel special. Pero with Kayden? He brings out a tornado of feelings inside me na hindi ko makuhang maipaliwanag. It was both chaos and calm. And it was the strongest of all feelings.

"So what now, Ferrofia? Plano mo naman na sigurong sabihin ang tungkol sa bata ngayong pareho naman pala kayo ng nararamdaman?"

"Gusto ko nang sabihin pero natatakot ako sa magiging reaksiyon niya. He's a control freak. Baka pag-nalaman niya tawagan niya agad si mommy o baka sabihin niya agad sa mommy niya. I don't think I'm ready for that. Gusto kong maging handa."

Louise arched her brow. "And when will you be ready?"

"I still don't know. I still have the need to talk to Elj. Hindi kami nakapag-usap ng maayos nung huli kaming nagkita. Gusto kong humingi ng tawad sa kanya. Siguro pag-nagawa ko nayun ay handa na akong magsabi ng totoo tungkol sa amin ni Kayden."

I think that will be my pass para maging maayos ang lahat.

"Fine, if that's what you want. Hindi naman ako ang nasa sitwasyon mo. I don't hold your mind."