Fight the Feelings

Love the way you lie

Marshall P.O.V
“ so do you reckon she will be alright or is it still a touchy subject” I asked Fifty on the phone as I sat in my studio by myself. I was currently talking to Fifty about seeing if Ashley wanted to sing the chorus for Love the way you lie. I know I said I was going to stay away from her because I wasn't going to let myself fall for her. She was stunning and she could have any guy she wanted, so I could tell she was the type to mess around and get over guys easily. Girls that look like that, can't say no to Temptation, but I also knew that she had been through an abusive relationship and this song was really important to me so I wanted someone that knows how the women feel in those kind of relationships.

“ yeah I reckon she will be keen, I think show her the song first and see what she says” he said startling me as I realised I let myself wander of and think about her. This shouldn't be happening, I have no idea where these feelings even came from, its not like I haven't seen her on TV or even met her before. We have been both in the industry for many years, Why all the sudden can I not get her out of my head, maybe I was still intrigued and surprised how different she was, she defiantly wasn't what I expected.

“ alright yeah I might do that,” I answered after thinking about what Fifty had said, it has been nearly a month since the poker night and we haven't spoken since. I know she is in Michigan as well but with my new album coming and trying to raise 3 teenage girls my life is so busy at the moment that I hadn’t had time to really do anything, including watching TV which is a good thing because I haven't seen Ashley on it. There have been a few occasions when the girls talk about gossip they have heard about her but I tend not to listen to much, but when I do its always about her dating some model that is younger than her.

I really don’t understand where all these feelings are coming from, I don't understand why my heart starts beating faster whenever I hear or see anything or Ashley. Was I that lonely?

It was the start of a New Year, Start of year that was going to be one hectic and busy year but I couldn't wait for all of it to come. My album comes out in 5 months and I still have a couple more songs to do. I wasn't going to be touring as much just because the girls hate it when I go away and because it isn't fair on Kim to make her have the girls when I have them, she deserves to have time to herself as well.

This year will be the first time I actually am doing festivals and concerts being sober, back in the day I was usually as high as you could get enjoying the groupies and all the free Drugs people would throw at you, but these days I am more responsible and I always try to think about my girls before I do anything stupid, but that doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy a few random nights with desperate groupies that I have known for ages, come on I am a guy who has needs and sometimes I just need time to let all my stress out, but that doesn’t mean I don't want someone to actually go home too and be able to show all that love I am hiding inside, but with all my trust issues I just can't seem to allow my heart to get hurt again.

Ashley P.O.V

Another stupid rumour about me dating some younger model has spread around the internet and TV. I hated that this was how people saw me, thinking all I do was date models and party all night long, this actually be the total opposite, I have actually come a recluse these last couple of months. The last time I went out was the poker night at Fifty's house, since than all I have been doing is looking after my boys and writing songs whenever they are at school.

I haven't really talked to anyone besides my mum and dad who live over in Australia. I have talked a few times to Fifty and sometimes with Beyonce whenever she wasn’t busy touring.

I have actually just gotten of the phone with Marshall, who asked if I wanted to come and hear a song that he was working on and was wondering If I would be interested in collaborating with him. I was a bit sceptical about it all at the start, just because Eminem is known for having offensive songs, but after hearing this song I automatically fell in love with it and was so excited to work with him on it. So all I had to do now was call and say I would defiantly do it, unfortunately even though I was a grown woman I still had to show everything I was going to release to my management team, and as much as that sucks it was still the right thing to do.