Fight the Feelings

Lack of sleep.

Joanne p.o.v

4 days 7 hours & 35 mins

Thats how long Ashley's been on life support and unconscious. Every day hope for my daughters survival seems to be dropping and I know it's crushing her boys to see her so defenseless.

" did you sleep here again?" I asked noticing Marshall sitting in the same spot we left him the night before, still leaning on her bed, holding her hand and just staring at her.

" yeah, wasn't to bad" he replied glancing at me before turning his attention back to Ashley.
It's funny Ashley has always described Marshall as an interesting character and she's always saying he's a lot different to Eminem.
And it's funny as I'm sitting on the other side of the bed, I can't help but glance at him from time to time and wonder what he's thinking. Without a doubt he's quiet and doesn't say much but you can just tell by his actions how much he cares about Ashley. I've learnt men that have been hurt are sometimes better to date since they know what it's like to be hurt and heartbroken.

"'You know Ashley's really lucky to have someone like you" I said breaking the silence between us as we both sit by her side waiting for any Kind of response.

" nah it's kind of the other way round" he just commented, showing no hint of how he's feeling, he just continues playing softly with her hands. He might not talk much or show any sign of emotions but I know for a fact he cares about her, I know Ashley's ex would never spend as much time sitting by her side like Marshall's doing, of course he would if the paparazzi were around an capture him acting like the perfect boyfriend but that's where it would stop, he wouldn't bother sitting by her side like Marshall's doing, or support and be there for her boys like Marshall has been. This how I know they have something special between them and even though he might not speak a lot he cares and that's all I care about.

" I'm just going to get a coffee, would you like anything?" I asked getting up from my spot to go grab some food, it's going to be another long day at this hospital.

" I'm right thanks" he answered slightly smiling at me before turning back towards Ashley.
Taking one more glance at them before leaving the room to go grab something to eat and drink.

Marshall p.o.v

I know I'm not the most talkative person and are probably really bad company, but I feel these days the only way I can keep it together is to not really talk and just continue being by Ashley's side wishing for her to get better.

Once again I've spent another night by her side, holding her hand thinking about what life could be like.
Seeing how i have some time alone with Ashley before visitors start coming in I take some time to talk to one of the only people I'm comfortable talking to about things.

"Sweetie, I really need you to wake up for me" I whispered softly to her hoping she can hear me.

" your boys need their mother, the world needs Ashley Ann and... You know i need you.......I'm crazy about you and I can't loose you" I continued, playing with her hand while trying to hold the tears back.

" you know it's funny.... I was just thinking the other night about proof and I remembered him always crushing on you........ It was probably around 2006 after the MTV videos awards and We were in the studio one day just chilling with the guys and proof just kept going on about meeting you...... " I continued laughing as I thought about proofs excitement from meeting Ashley.

" now I had no clue because I dont remember one moment from that night but proof seriously talked about you the whole day....... He kept telling us how different you were and how wasn't expecting you to be so down to earth.... I just laughed thinking he was stupid for thinking some stunning singer sensation could ever be down to earth and actually genuinely nice...... But who would have guessed 4 years later I'm now in love with the exact same woman he was talking about all those years ago" I whispered telling her of the story about proof and how he had a massive crush on her and kept bugging me to try and change my mind about her, but back than I thought all female singers were stuck up sluts who were nothing more than a nice fuck.