Fight the Feelings

If things could stay like this

" hey man" I smiled entering my studio to see Royce sitting there quietly doing his own thing as the rest of the guys slowly continue arriving.

" hey bro, how you been?" He asked looking up from his magazine and taking a sip of his coffee knowing his going to be jumping of walls soon from caffeine kick he's having.

" I'm great, what about you ? " I answered cheerfully, once again he can notice by my smile I'm in a happy mood just like I've been for the last month or so.

" I'm good, keen to get into the studio today" he replied, shuffling his papers of writing aside to make space for me as I take a seat next to him. Today we are mainly working on bad meets evil and I know he's got some ideas he wants to run past me which I'm open to hearing about. We're actually really up to date with this album and the songs just keep flowing out of us, we are defiantly going to have so many to choose from when it comes to picking the final song tracks.

Seeing he's got so many pages filled with lyrics I can't help but take a peek and within seconds I'm seeing some really good verses that we can definitely try with some beats. These days I'm so more open to trying new things and listening to other peoples ideas that I've noticed my stress levels decreasing and I'm beginning to really enjoy hip hop again. I know a couple of months ago I was working really hard and had so much going on that I probably became really angry and bad company to be around and to hang out with, but now it's defiantly easing up and I'm so bloody thankful to have people like Royce, D12, Paul, my girls and of course Ashley and her family who have stuck by me and have put up with my shit. Now it's my time to make it up to them.

" you know I never really got to thank you for sticking up for Ashley and I, and somehow convincing these guys to give Ashley a chance" I said sincerely, quickly glancing towards the D12 guys who are mucking around like always.
It was only a couple of days after telling the guys about Ashley and i that they came to my house and apologized for acting so Immaturely and being rude to Ashley, they also agreed to give her a chance and within week we organized a poker match so they could see how wonderful she is and since than I think their whole perception of her has changed.
I can tell they're still weary but she's come over here a few times and I have slowly notice them getting used to us being together, but I'm just happy they have stopped all their comments and jokes about her and actually make her feel welcomed whenever they see her.

" no problems man, I'm still stunned to see how Quickly they've warmed up to her" he said, noticing the same thing I have, but I guess it's pretty hard not to warm quickly up to Ashley since she's such a pleasant person to be around and is always so down to earth. I still find it hard to believe she's the worlds most famous female singer.

" yeah she's gets along really well with them." I replied smiling as I once again begin to think about her. She's managed to turn majority of my friends opinions of her around within a month, plus not to mention her and my girls are now getting along. After speaking to Whitney about what Hailie and Alaina told me I managed to convince her that Ashley wasn't the reason Kim and I
Ended things. I'm also doing everything possible to show her I'm not leaving nor am I ever going to disown her, she's my daughter no one else's.

" are you guys hanging out tonight?" He asked making me come out of my own little world since I'm always getting distracted by thinking about Ashley.

" yeah we are but I've got the girls tonight, so just a movie or something" I answered, once again Kim has decided to go out and leave the girls at mine, I'm not angry nor is Ashley but I just wish she would give me more notice. Luckily Ashley has been staying at mine for the past few days so it's not like we haven't seen each other and want to rip each others clothes of as soon as we get home, I think I can wait a few more days seeing Ashley doesn't really want to push things and start staying over to quickly.