Fight the Feelings

Poker Night

                               I hate hearing something that absolutely kills you inside,

                                                and having to act like you don't care  

Ashley P.O.V

Here I was shaking as I walked up to the front door, I was nervous to be in a room of people I didn't really know except for Fifty. Thoughts and concern kept running through my head like will they judge me? will they like me? will they  think I am stuck up? I don't know I just prefer to be back at my apartment reading a nice book with a nice glass of wine.

“ you made it” Fifty screamed as he answered the door, I am pretty sure he thought I was going to ditch it but I kept my word to him because I know he is only trying to help me, and I have to thank him for that.

“ come on everyone is in here” he said gesturing me to follow him through the large hallways to we arrive at the lounge room, it defiantly wasn't what I was expecting, I thought I would walk into a room filled with smoke from their weed cigarettes, Alcohol bottles everywhere with empty bags of chips lying around the table, but surprisingly it was nice and neat.

“ Ashley you already met the guys but these are their wives Caroline, Charlotte and Penny” he said as he introduced the stunning women that were standing next to Mr porter, Paul and Royce. I politely said hello and smiled while shaking their hands, as they returned the look. They seemed really sweet and polite, I smiled thinking maybe night was going to pick up and I was going to enjoy myself.

“ of course you remember Marshall” he said laughing as Marshall entered the room with a can of red-bull in his hands. He wore dark jeans with a white T-shirt and hoodie accompanied by some major bling on his wrist. I thought he looked really good, not that I have any feelings for him just that he really suited the whole new look he was going for, it was different to the bright oversized tracksuits he used to wear.

“ nice to see you again” we both said as he came over and gave me a hug while kissing my cheek for a nice welcome. For some reason I felt my cheeks begin to blush but luckily no one saw it, i don't even know why I was blushing it was just a greeting Kiss, maybe it was because I haven't been near guys for a while.

“ oh Ashley this is Damon and his girlfriend Cindy, he helps me manage a lot of my artist” he said as he pointed to this Dark man and a very stunning younger woman, who was just glaring at me.

“ I am a big fan” he said stepping forward to shake my hand, he seemed nice and a very polite man but his girlfriend on the other hand just stood there glaring at me. I just kept smiling and shaking his hand, trying to cover up my suspicion.

“yeah, likewise” she added as she stood back behind Damon, she didn't even shake my hand. Her face just kept glaring at me and I thought I must of offended her In some way but this was the first time meeting her, so why does she sound so cold towards me. I tried to act like it wasn't bugging me but on the inside it was, I guess Fifty and the others could sense the tension between us too, while I stood quiet trying to figure out what her problem was with me. It was going to bug me until I figure it out, I hate myself already I don't need anyone else to hate me. I always say to myself that being as successful as I am means there are always going to be a pack of haters behind my back, I was just hoping she only was hating on my because she wasn't a fan of Ashley Ann, not because she already disliked me personally.

“ Just ignore her, she's just jealous” Marshall leant in and whispered softly in my ear, it sounded sweet the way he said it to me but it made me wonder why she had that attitude towards me.