Blackmail / jicheol

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He was his inspiration.

He admired everything about him; from his finesse in playing the piano to his sweet, sultry voice singing and pouring his entire emotions into the melody. Napakaganda niya. Eto ang unang tumatak sa isip ni Seungkwan nang una silang magkakilala.

Jihoon is beautiful.

And that's not entirely because of his adorable qualities, it's because of his passion for the thing he loves to do most, music. Seungkwan admired that passion. He loved that about him.

"'WAG KANG TATANGI OKAY? IKAW ANG KAKANTA SA KASAL KO!" malakas na bulyaw ng batang si Seungkwan. His confidence crumbled at the sight of Jihoon's undivided attention on him and thought maybe, just maybe, that was a bit too much for a stranger. "U-Um, ano, p-please?"

Jihoon but all nodded, much to his surprise, and continued playing the piano.

Seungkwan was glad he got sick that time. Kahit na masasakit ang mga shots na binibigay sa kanya ng mga nurse, kahit na namimiss na niya ang kanyang alagang hamster sa bahay. He was glad he got sick and got admitted into the hospital that time.

Because meeting Jihoon changed his life.

"Jihoon."

"U-Um, Seungkwan."

"Seungkwan," pag-uulit ni Jihoon sa kanyang pangalan. "Nakahanap ka na ba ng mapapangasawa?"

"Bes bata pa lang ako, aral muna!"

He remembered Jihoon nodding. "Kailangan mong bilisang maghanap ng mapapangasawa."

"Ayoko nga! Hindi naman ako nagmamadali."

Jihoon nodded at him, stared at him for a whole minute before tapping one key on the piano. "Let's just hope I live long enough."

"Huh?"

"I said sure, I promise."

Gustong suntukin ni Seungkwan ang sarili sa pagiging iyakin niya. Bakit ba kasi ang bilis niyang maapektuhan mula sa isang maliit na alaala? Bakit ang hina ng mga mata niya? Bakit ang hina ng dibdib niyang agad-agad sumasakit?

Seungkwan let himself sob. Again. For the nth time he didn't even bother counting anymore. In his hands lay Jihoon's music sheets with wet stains on them from his tears.

Jihoon's remnants.

Pieces for Seungkwan's wedding.
Composed by Lee Jihoon