Blackmail / jicheol

77.

"I'm sorry."

"You don't have to."

"Pwede bang tanggapin mo na lang ang sorry ko? Para matapos na 'to? You and  both know we owe each other apologies."

". . . No I'm sorry. Ako ang dapat magsorry. You didn't do anything wrong."

"I did. I gave up on you. That's on the many reasons why I should say sorry. Sinukuan kita wherein fact sana hindi ako nagpadala sa sariling emosyon ko at hindi lumayo sa'yo. Kaibigan kita. Friends don't give up on each other. I really adored you, you know. Extreme affection somehow turned toxic on me and became to smell like hate."

". . . I understand why. I-I'm s-sorry I did that."

"I also understand why you did. Alam ko ang uri ng sitwasyon kinalalagyan mo yet I turned a blind eye to that. For the longest time I allowed myself to be bitter. Simula noon naiintindihan naman kita e. Nagpapanggap lang ako na hindi kasi kailangan ko ng dahilan para layuan ka. I'm—not sure if that turned out for the best or for the worst."

"Best. You're happy now when you left me."

"Shit you're right. Hahaha. Kahit na naranasan ko ang matinding sakit na dinulot mo sa'kin noon, ang mahalaga masaya na ako ngayon. With the people who loves me truly and just as I am. Guess you can say its for the best. Yong nangyari sa'tin. But still, I lost a friend back then."

"But I'm here now. And you better not mess it up Angel."

"I'm a mess myself, Woozi. Hindi ko maipapangakong hindi ako makakagawa ng kalokohan."

"That's fine. Mess up everything wag lang si Joshua."

"Hahahahaha he's the first I'll make a mess of. Kung alam mo lang."

"Spare me the details please."

"The first mess I did was when I didn't wear any co—"

"Ah shit stop."

"HAHAHAHA."

"Yeah sobrang nakakatawa."

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". . ."

"Just come here and hug me you spoiled rat."

". . .  I-I fucking missed you so bad bakit ko pa ba pinatagal ang lahat nang 'to, I s-should've spent a lot more time with y-you."

"Nah baka mainlove ka sakin e."

"Shut up I'm serious!! Fuck Jeonghan k-kahit kailan talaga—"

"Don't blame yourself Han. We all had our mistakes in this journey. The mistakes matter, they serve as teachers but they don't matter much at the end. As long as you're here, I'm still here hugging your teary ass and we're good. Yan ang importante."

"I-I fucking loved you."

"Okay. Pero me too. Pero hanggang dun lang. Ang sama na ng tingin nina Jisoo at Seungcheol satin oh."

"Ahh damn them I'm making the most out of this. Bahala sila."

"I'm sorry Han, and i thank you for all the times you've spent on me and my stubbornness."

"F-Fuck just d-don't talk alright?! Nagf-flashback sakin ang lahat I'm not good at stopping e-emotions!"

". . . okay."

". . ."

". . . I love you, Han. Keep that in mind. I'm so thankful I have you as a friend."

"S-Stop stroking my hair like that pinapatay na ako ni Seungcheol sa tingin."