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So I was just drawing random shiz when I suddenly remembered what happened this morning because the doodle looked exactly like what served as a trigger for my freaking memories.

Guess what?

I GOT EIGHT OVER TWENTY ITEMS ON ONE OF OUR ENGLISH ACTIVITES.

Like...

8 over 20

F--

On an English activity

--ORK

CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT

I mean

Yes, English isn't my native language but I've never gotten a single digit score on two to three digit total score of a test or whatsoever. I'm not saying I take a very large amount of pride in my knowledge regarding the mentioned subject but seriously.

8 over freaking 20

I UNDERSTAND IF IT'S ON MATH BECAUSE HECK YEAH, I'VE GOTTEN 2 OVER 20 ON I THINK THAT WAS MULTIPLICATION OF VARIABLES (ok was dat what they call it i forgot eeegggh) AND OML I SURVIVE MATH CLASSES BECAUSE I CHEAT-- *slapped*

No srsly

And look, I got that advice my older sister who has been friends with numbers ever since she was a child, but not so much on words. So I'm not at fault. *cough*

Anyways, I haven't been listening to any kind of lecture about something I'm not interested in (which gets all of the school subjects and ties them tightly in a bundle), and English subject is one of those (well of course because i literally don't like any subject) but this is the WORST SCORE I EVER GOT IN ENGLISH

And when something happens, the chain will keep going and going. Like, I'll start getting the same scores over and over again.

It'll be like that.

I CRIIIII.

I RLLY CRRRRIIIII.

WHY

AND THEN THERE'S THIS WHOLE LIST OF STUFF I'M GOING TO DO IN THE USELESS RESEARCH SUBJ-- DO NOT TELL THE TEACHER OR ELSE I WILL HUNT U DOWN AND SHOVE MY HAND THROUGH UR MOUTH, GRAB UR INTESTINES AND TURN YOU INSIDE-OUT, HANG YOU BY UR ORGANS ON A BRANCH SO I COULD USE YOU AS A SWING.

Okay.

I'm calm no-- *sees myself in the mirror* *SCREAMS*

~technical issues~
~stand by, okay~

I just realized I look more and more like shiz right now

My hair is messy af and i don't have my glasses on at the moment so i might have seen a monster reflected on the glass oml the lighting is quite dim in this room too

Oh BTW

Did you know?

Some of those that you have rendered your favourite songs even once in your lifetime are actually related to some past event that you got involved in or happened around you.

And here's a complete list of the "songs i have deemed worthy of going on repeat" this month;

1. UNRAVEL by TK (this is probably not related at all because who wouldn't love unravel like agggh)
2. Wave by Lily
3. Ah YEAH! by Spyair i think (it's haikyuu soundtrack but that's not the reason ok im no weeb or somethin)
4. Partners in Crime by Set it Off

LIKE

THIS LIST IS MESSED-UP

IDK if the information is true but I kinda most likely would agree for a bit on that one. Egggh what shuddap. I'm triggered and srsly bored right now.

And I'm supposed to be making an article for the school paper but egggh I got too lazy and when i re-read it... I don't think this will pass as a freaking feature. I mean, seriously. Like, seriously. Because it's supposed to be about some lecture on teenage pregnancy (rest in pieces school) and I didn't pay attention (and the only classmates whose numbers i have on my phone make up a total of 5 ppl and three r unattended plus the two others didn't listen either).

Once I get a wrong piece of information written on this paper I will die

I'm on the third bond paper and I'm not finished yet. OML. HELP. LIKE RLLY. I'M MAKING UP FOR THE LACK OF FACTS BY LETTING THE WORDS GO ROUND AND ROUND A SINGLE IDEA FOR AS LONG AS I CAN. I'M IN SERIOUS TROUBLE. AND THE "CLUB PRESIDENT" HAS APPROACHED ME TO TELL ME ABOUT THIS OMYLORD TF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO SHE'S PROBS EXPECTING SOMETHING BIG

BECAUSE THE LAST TIME I WROTE ONE SHE DID SAY STUFF ABT THE ARTICLE (WHICH UNFORTUNATELY GOT CONVERTED INTO NEWS BECAUSE THERE WERE ENOUGH FEATURES AND LACK OF HEADLINES) BUT OH GLOB I DIDN'T LISTEN WHYYY

... ok. Srsly, i am calm now. IM NOT LYING THIS TIME.

And yeh i should probably stop ranting and do something productive for once in my life like try finishing hw or something.

... but then i can't. I don't want to. I just wanna lie down and cuddle my blanket and sleep again and sleep for as long as i can without having people try to wake me up because they don't want me to be "slacking off". What? Weekends are called weekends for a reason. Oh, but it's not housework-chan's fault. It's schoolwork being such a yandere and wanting all the attention they can get from a student so they are blackmailing the teachers so as to make us bring them home.

I have found the truth!

*ta-ta-tan ta-na-na-nan*

OSHIETE OSHIETE YO
WHY DO WE SPEND MORE TIME
AT SCHOOL THAN HERE AT HOME?
THAT'S REALLY IN THE WRONG
I'M SERIOUS HERE, I'M REALLY SERIOUS
JUST TWO DAYS IN A WEEK
AND THEY GIVE US MORE WORK
WE CAN'T TAKE ANY MORE

I DO NOT GET WHY THEY'RE DESPERATE
TO MAKE US SUFFER MORE
I'M PRETTY SURE WHOEVER HAD MADE SCHOOL
DOESN'T WANT THIS TOO!
BURN

I WANNA RUN, I WANNA SCREAM
I WANNA THROW MY BOOKS AT THEM
THE PROJECTS AND THE GROUPWORKS ARE...

JUST SERIOUSLY STUPID AND LAME AND IT'S PISSING ME OFF
WHY DO WE HAVE TO ANSWER AND NOT SLEEP MORE?
I THOUGHT SCHOOL PROMOTES WELL-BEING BUT GUESS WHAT?
IT'S TOTES THE OPPOSITE
AND IT HAS BEEN PROVED THAT THE BRAIN WORKS LATER
LIKE AFTER TEN IN THE MORNING BUT WHY
DO WE HAVE TO START AT 7:45?
BUT YAY, WE'RE STILL ALIVE

SADISTS, ARE THEY? OR ARE THEY JUST PLAINLY VERY STUPID
YES I AM DUMB AND I AM LAME BUT ATLEAST I KNOW JUSTICE
THIS IS TOO MUCH
THEY EVEN SAY
DO NOT TAKE YOUR
WORK TO YOUR HOUSE
BECAUSE THAT IS
WHAT CAUSES MORE STRESS
UNRAVELLING THE BRAIN

BECAUSE OF SCHOOL WE DO NOT KNOW
NOT EVEN OUR OWN FAMILY
WE CANNOT UNDERSTAND THEM NOW
SCHOOL'S TAKEN MUCH OF OUR TIME
AND SOME EVEN FAINT FROM THE STRESS
OR EVEN GET ANEMIC NOW
WHY, DO THEY WANT TO MURDER CHILDREN?

AND THAT MUST EXPLAIN WHY WE ARE SOMETIMES SO LAZY
WE ARE IN NO WAY ALLOWED TO BE SLACKING
I'M BEGGING YOU, PLEASE, JUST TO REMEMBER THAT
WE'RE OF FLESH AND BLOOD
DO YOU WANT TO SEE EXPLODING BRAINS THAT BAD?
OR DO YOU WANT TO HAVE A TASTE OF ANGUISH?
A SADISTIC THING, THE WORLD IS PSYCHOTIC
WE ARE NOT JUST SOME ROBOTS

WE ARE JUST HUMAN
WE ARE JUST CHILDREN
WE ARE NOT PERFECT
WE DO GET STRESSED TOO

AND SOMEDAY EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THESE THINGS WILL VANISH
OUR EFFORTS BE WASTED
WHEN WE DIE OH
NOW I AM DEPRESSED
WHY DID I THINK OF DEATH?

OSHIETE
I TELL YOU THIS

THE MONSTER THAT YOU SEE
IT'S ALL THE FAULT OF SCHOOL

... okay.

This is what happens when I'm starting to rant. I always end up making new lyrics related to my current "problem". Well, we aren't even facing the worst part of schooling right now so i don't have the right to talk but srsly

I hate it

Eh

The finals (of tests okokok) are like 2 days away but what the fork am i doing

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