but who would date a broken girl? | j.w.d

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me and brendon sat at our usual table. I didn't bring any food as I didn't feel like eating. after that comment yesterday I was put off food.

brendon brought me my favourite snacks though. so I kind of had to give in. then I caught him staring at Sarah Orzechowski. "is she cuter than me now?" I joke. "w-what oh um..."
"YOU LIKE HER!?" I whisper yell.
"m-maybe?" he said that and I squealed. "awww! beebo has a crush!"
"shhhh!" he shushed me. "I'm not going to tell!" I giggled. "good!"
"salutations" we look up to see josh and tyler.  "hello" I smile. josh smiled back. ohmygosh his eyes jajsjajajsj. "oh look it's cat's boyfriend!" brendon jokes.

"Brendon!" I scold him, going red.
josh giggled shyly. "is he good in bed?"
"boi!" I exclaim. I got out of my seat.
"Sarah!" I called! "Don't!" He pulled me back into my seat and I giggled.

"Is she good in bed?" I tease him.
"woah, you like Sarah?" Tyler asks.
"Tyler loves Jenna" I sang softly.
"n-no I don't!" he stuttered going pink.
"whenever I speak to you,  your so shy and quiet" josh says. I shrugged.
"once you get to know her, you will know she's the devil" brendon whispers
"your such a dork!" I exclaim.

"which Jenna?" Brendon asks Tyler.
"there's no jenna in this school..."
"he likes Jenna black" josh whispered.
"she has pretty eyes" I compliment.
"I know..." Tyler went off into his own world dreaming about Jenna (who happened to be best friends with sarah)

"so..." josh says awkwardly.
then my phone buzzed.
Bloodline💉👫💞: don't go home

Bloodline💉👫💞: pls sis don't

Bloodline💉👫💞: come to my house or even brendons

Bloodline💉👫💞: reply please

Brendon and me exchange glances.
"My mom won't mind" he says kindly.
"Thanks" i texted my brother back saying I would go to brendons.

then we awkwardly look back at josh and tyler who were giving us the stare.
"I love cats" I say.
"I love cats too" josh spoke up.
"I had a cat" I say plainly.
"Really? What was its name?"
"His name was Josh" I say.
"Really?" He grinds.
"No I'm chatting shit. His name was Cyrus" I wiped my eyes tiredly.
"What happened to him?"
"Someone killed him" I say quietly.
"I-i-I'm sorry" he says comfortingly.
"I-its okay"" I mumbled looking down.
"I love dogs" Brendon chimed in.
"yes you do" I smile lightly.

afterwards we had music. tyler selected us to use a piano. I didn't know how to play it at all. "I could teach you" he says kindly. "I'd love that" I smile lightly.
"c-can I ask you something?" he asks.
"you just did" I joke. he giggled a bit.
"I... saw what your brother sent you. is everything alright at home?" he asks.
"y-yeah" I stammered. "I've seen the bruises. I've seen you run out of your house crying. Ive seen the messages"
"I-I don't know what your talking about" I lied, tears in my eyes.

"you know I would never tell anyone"
"i-i just..." I didn't bother speaking.
"your my friend. I care about you. just know I'm here for you" he says, putting an arm round me. I nodded quietly.
"if you need a talk or anything, I'm here" he says,holding me tightly.

"t-thank you" I whisper.
"that's what friends are for" he smiled.
he taught me a few notes on the piano. I wasn't a quick learner and I kept forgetting. I wanted to cry but he assured me that it was okay.

"look, it doesn't matter if you can't play it just yet. we only just started. If you want you can sing" he says kindly.
"I-I can't sing" I shook my head.
"I'm sure you can!"
"trust me. I can't"
"i can't trust you on that" he grinned.
I smiled lightly.

after school I went home to get my stuff. I brought an over night bag with me. I crept in through the window and grabbed all my necessities. I threw my bag down and was about to get out when the door slammed open.
"where have you been!?" shit.
"I'm sorry. I'll go now!" then a pain shot through my arm. "your not going anywhere!" he growled. "p-please-"

I didn't know what to do expect cry for him. cry for his help. scream his name. maybe he'll hear. just maybe.

"JOSH!" I screamed and cried over and over as I was thrown around the room.
"CAT!" the door slammed open and a furious brendon was there. "do not touch her like that!" he screamed at my dad. I sobbed quietly when I heard his tone. "are you my daughters boyfriend?" dad growled. "I'm her best friend! I'm here for her whenever your fucking with her! You can't treat a girl like that! EVER!" brendon shouted.

"you do not tel-" brendon pushed my dad out the way and picked me up in his arms. I cried into his arm as he ran out the house, holding me. he grabbed my overnight bag on the way out. he placed me in his car when two pairs of arms wrapped themselves around me.

I recognised the self harm scars. brendon started driving while tyler comforted me. "he's not going to hurt you anymore, okay?" he says softly.
"h-how do you know?" I whisper.
"because I'm not letting him"

we arrived at brendons house. josh was sitting on the door step, four cans of red bull in his hands. he noticed my tears and threw the drinks down.
"what's wrong?" he asks, gently.
"I-its nothing" but I was crying hard.
"you don't have to tell me just yet. but please, stay strong" he comfortingly says.

I dumped my overnight bag on the bed in the guest room. I sank to the floor silently. I stared at the wall, processing what happened. there was a knock at the door. "it's open" i mumbled.
but really it came out as a "mm mmm"

josh came in holding a mug.
"I made you hot chocolate" he says.
I blinked in reply. he put it on the small table and came and sat next to me.
"you feeling okay?" it's like I couldn't speak. I said the words but they didn't come out. "bad question. um... let me know if you need me. you probably want to me alone" he says getting up.

"don't go!"