but who would date a broken girl? | j.w.d

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hey guys

its meee
lol
so
i wrote these books at a v young age when i had SHIT mental health and i was in my emo phase
ive unstanned panic! due to the band being extremely problematic
but i will keep these books up for entertainment purposes even though these books SUCK

my current stans: harry styles, melanie martinez, one direction

luv! 💓
I silently walked through the halls. high school was crowded. i got pushed and shoved. I blinked every time it happened. I made it to my locker and took my books out. and they got slammed out my hand.

"hey! you little shit!" I turn around to face kayleigh. she was a popular cheerleader. she was with her two side kicks, charlie and millie. "hi" I say quietly.
"speak up!" she yelled. I jumped.
"hi" I say a bit louder.
"I saw you with a guy yesterday"
"yeah. my brother scott" I replied.
"are you sure? looked like your boy"
"that's disgusting" I spoke.
"don't you dare talk to me like that!"
"I-I'm sorry!" I stammer. she raised her hand. I flinched. "babe!"

I felt nothing. I opened my eyes and saw a boy with purple hair.
"we're going to be late" he says to her.
"it can wait!" she rolled her eyes.
"leave her alone!" he says to her.
someone was defending me!? how!?
no one likes me! well, apart from tyler and brendon. tyler was in all my classes. he would always say hi to me and smile at me. brendon was my best friend. he was the loudest kid in our grade. he has adhd and anxiety and is in a band.

"b-but..." she stammers.
"what have I told you about bullying?"
"whatever josh!" she rolled her eyes and walked away with her friends.
"are you okay?" he asks me.
"y-yeah. t-thank you" I stutter.
"I'm josh" he says, holding his hand out. "Cat" I replied, shaking it.
"I've never seen you around" he says.
"not many people take notice of me"
"oh wait! your friends with Brendon! he's a great guy!" he says kindly.
"yeah" I smile a bit.

then the bell rang. "I have to go. see you later" he smiled and waved as he went off to his homeroom. "bye" I whisper, walking in the opposite direction to my own

•••

"hey best friend!" brendon ran and hugged me. "hello" I giggle. I was my true self around him. he never judged me or hurt me ever. he loved me. as a friend obviously! we sat down at our desk and he asked about my weekend.
"mom and dad fighted. scott moved out as he got sick of it. I'm a day clean"
my parents always fight. my dad is extremely abusive towards me and my mother. but she couldn't leave him. it would make everything worse.

"I'm sorry" he says deeply, putting a hand on my shoulder. "everything's gonna be okay. I promise. come over when you want" he says kindly.
"thank you" I say, smiling a little.
"I'm proud of you" he added. I smiled a bit more. "thank you. now how was your weekend?" I ask as he removes his hand. "I wrote a song. went to the park with my dog. went to my therapist"

after homeroom I headed to my first period. music. I sat down in my seat and took my note book out. tyler sat beside me as usual. "hi" he smiled.
"hi" I smile back a bit.
"how you doing?" he asks, taking his notebook out. "good. you?" I lied.
"you don't look good. and im great"
"don't worry about me" I say, taking a pen out of my pencil case.
"you know you can always talk to me"
"I appreciate your concern" I say.

the lesson began and we had to learn a song on an instrument. we were allowed to work with another person. everyone crowded our table and begged tyler. he was the top student in music. not many people liked him for some unknown reason. so he kindly refused.
he turned to me. "wanna be my partner?" he asks. "sure" I nod.

it was now lunch. brendon has detention so I sat alone in the back of the dining room. I opened my sandwich bag up and took my sandwich out. then my food was flying across the floor. I look up to see kayleigh, charlie and millie. "why are you eating? your fat enough!" she laughed. fat.

tears welled up in my eyes. her and her friends laughed harder. "honestly, why are you still alive?" millie flipped her hair. "yeah-" "what the hell is going on?" josh was here. with tyler. tyler sat beside me and put an arm round me.
"are you okay?" he asks me softly. I nodded but started to cry.

"you are such a baby!" kayleigh exclaims.
"that's enough!" josh snaps.
"why are so angry?" she asks.
"I've told you! you need to stop bullying people! it's wrong!" he exclaims.
"so what if I 'bully'?"
"you are making people unhappy!"
"why are you so annoying?"
"if I'm that annoying then why are we still dating?" this did not look good.

"babe don't even go there!"
"are you going to leave cat alone or not?" he asks her, folding is arms.
"I am not stopping!"
"you know what! fine! if your not going to leave her alone, then I don't see why I'm still dating you!" he exclaims.
"why can't you accept this?"
"it's wrong to bully innocent people! you made her freaking cry!"
"shut the fuck up!" she rolled her eyes.
"you know what? we're over"

did he just break up with her over me?
"you are not doing this to me!"
"I am! I'm sick of you being like this!"
"you know what? I DONT CARE!" she shouted and ran off. her friends followed her. josh sighed and sat next to me. "are you okay?" he asks
"I'm sorry" I whisper. I got up and ran out of the cafeteria.

after lunch was over I headed to period 5. last lesson of the day! my last lesson was biology. josh and tyler were both in my class. I sat down at a table near the back. they both sat with me. great.
"look, I just want to make sure your okay" josh says kindly. "I'm fine"
"your not fine" he says softly.
"I'm sorry I broke you two up" I say.
"you didn't. I wanted to anyway"
"don't feel bad" tyler says putting an arm round me. I don't let many people touch me. but I didn't mind if Tyler did.

the lesson finally ended and i rushed out of school. brendon saw me.
"girl, I've barley seen you today!"
"I have to go! I'll text you" I say.
"if anything happens, call me" he says.
"I will" he hugged me and I start to walk home.

I made a friend today.