but who would date a broken girl? | j.w.d

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I was stopped on the way the maths today. it was sarah.
"hi" she smiled. "hello" I say plainly.
"where you headed to?" she asks.
"math" I shrugged. "biology" she says.
"so...um...your brendons best friend right?" she asks. I nodded. "I like him"
"aw!" I squeal. she went slightly pink.
"aren't you dating Jeremy davis?" I ask.
"we broke up" she says quietly. "oh. I'm sorry" I reply, putting a hand on her shoulder. "it's okay. but, I'm to scared to ask out brendon!" she panics.

"he's really genuine, kind and sweet. he wouldn't laugh or anything" I say.
"but how do I ask? I'm shy and stuff"
"come to the concert and try to talk to him maybe? like, stand close to him? I've never had a boyfriend before" my voice went shaky. I've had a boyfriend. didn't go to well. "but be yourself"

we talked a bit more while we headed to our classes. I walked in and josh was sitting in the middle. he was by himself and his bag was in the chair next to him. he saw me and gestured me over. I made my way over and tripped on the way making the kids around me laugh.
"did the midget fall?"

"she's so quiet and weird!"

"is she crying?" and I was nearly. josh helped me gather my books up and let me sit next to the window, away from everyone else. he comforted me, as he was a good friend.

after, it was time to go home. I was going to tylers house after school to work on the song. we could either write our own song or practise one already released.

he drove us to his house and we went straight to his room. his room was plain but pretty at the same time. if you get what I mean. "so...I was thinking we write a song together" he says.
"okay... I've never written a song" I say. "I've written a ton... so... maybe we could make a new one? I want you to experience song writing to"
"that's really kind of you. okay" I agree.

"so... what type of song?" he asks.
"a love song?" I shrug.
"I've never written a love song"
"me neither - I don't believe in love"
"whys that?
"looking back at life... what love have a I ever got?"
"I'm your friend. I love you" he says.
"but like... dating wise. I just don't think I'll ever find someone who will love me the way I thought jay did..."
"my brother?" he asks. I shook my head, praying he would ask stuff!
"I want to ask who jay is but the way you say what your saying, you don't want to answer that. so I'll ignore it"
"thank you" I say, picking my nails.

"you just need someone to prove you wrong... hey! I have an idea!"
"what?" i ask, sitting up slightly.
"we could write a song about love. but needing someone to prove to you that your loved... you get me?" he asks.
"prove me wrong" I say. "perfect name!"

"Tyler" I say. he turned to me. "I kind of do believe in love but then I kind of don't. is that a thing?" I ask.
"your in two minds?" he asked. I nod.
"I just... don't think loves for me"
"so you believe in love but you don't believe anyone would love you?"
"precisely" I replied.

he came up with a few lines but I was lost. "what gives you inspiration?
"I don't know..." I felt so worthless. I think tyler noticed my face. "don't feel bad. we'll think of something" he says.
I nod lightly. "so you believe in love?"
"last time I checked, yes" I reply.
"so maybe you could put that?"
"that I believe in love?" he nodded.
"mmm... okay" I thought about it.

so we got through a bit of the song and then he suggested we get something to eat. I agreed and we went downstairs. "want a sandwich?" he asks me.
"okay" I reply, as he led me to a chair.
I sat down on it. "peanut butter, tuna fish or cucumber?" he asks. "tuna fish"
"gross" he says, making me giggle.

but he kindly made me a sandwich.