My Wonderful Fucked up Life

thoughts

Sometimes I don't feel real. I feel like my life is as meaningful as a dream its there for a little and gone by morning.
What I mean by that is I feel like days are going by faster and faster and I feel like everyday is just a day closer to death. Sometimes I think about what it'd be like if time stopped for awhile. But then it seems like it would be worse. A motionless unmoving world. I'm also upset because I feel like there's not much I can accomplish I have no talent I'm very negative, impatient and I give up easily. Plus, at my age not many people see you as your own person. You're just a kid. Something your parents decided to have, or if you're me something your parents had accidentally. XD

Back to my point....

Your parents tell you what to do up until you're eighteen, the age were you are now a person and are allowed to make decisions. You make decisions until you eventually have a kid and then the cycle just restarts. Or you don't have one. And maybe you feel like without kids you can just live a life for yourself instead of someone else. Or you can just be seen as a broken piece in the cycle.

There are a lot of things I can do with my life. Anything could be possible if I really tried or put effort into something but I have no ambition to do so. I want to do something worth remembering but there's a voice in my head saying I'll never reach it.

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

This may sound confusing but let me explain further on what I mean.
Let me know if you got confused in the comments. I have strange thoughts.

Try to keep up...

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Try it with me
Here we go

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One, two, three, everybody
C'mon off your seats
I'm gonna tell ya 'bout a beat
That's gonna make ya move your feet

Ill give the barbecue
Show and tell you how to move
If you're five or eighty two
This is somethin' you can do

Pop it, lock it
Polka dot it
Countrify then hip hop it
Put your hawk in the sky
Side to side
Jump to the left
Stick it, glide
Zig zag cross the floor
Shuffle in diagonal
When the drum hits
Hands on your hips
One foot it, 180 twist
And then a, zig zag
Step, slide
Lean it left
Clap three times