Forbidden Secrets (Completed ✅)

Thirty Eight

"Beautiful couple" she said with a shake of her head "is that your husband?" she looked up eagerly and when she saw Stephi's crumpled tear streaked face her expression immediately changed.
"Oh my goodness my dear, what's wrong?" she said with a hand to her shoulder
"Nothing, thanks" Steph whispered  swiping at her tears and dripping nose.
The boarding call was made and Steph was thankful that she didn't have to relive anymore moments of their history. All she wanted was to crawl up into her cramped airline chair and go to sleep. She found her seat on the plane and said a small prayer of thanks when no one was in the seat beside her. She absently stuffed her carry on in the compartment and curled up into her make shift bed. Shortly after the plane took off she was soothed off to sleep by the humming of the plane's engine. Several uninterrupted hours later the stewardess tentatively shook her arm as they prepared to land in Louisville. When she groggily exited the plane, she made her way through baggage claim and then out into the terminal. She found the nearest bank of phones and dialed Lexi's number
"Hello" Lexi said in a confused voice
"Lexi it Stephi" there was a long confused pause before she answered
"Stephi?" she could hear the utter confusion in Lexi's voice
"Yeah it's me alright, listen" Stephi began
"Wait a minute, where are you?" Lexi said her voice rising
"Louisville" Stephi said with an exhausted sigh
"What? How in the fuck did you get to Louisville?" Lexi said sounding even more lost
"I flew and boy are my arms tired" Stephi said sarcastically with a forced laugh
"Why are you here? I thought Jordan had a big show tonight in New York" Lexi said as if she couldn't really understand the situation
"Yeah he does, but there has been a change of plans" Stephi said with a note of sarcasm
"Oh well is Jordan here with you then?" Lexi said with growing excitement
"No, I am afraid not, he is doing the show in New York" Stephi said trying her best to hold back the tears and keep her composure. There was a weighty pause as Lexi tried to figure out what exactly was going on without making Stephi any more upset.
"Stephi what in the fuck is going on" she finally asked
"Listen," Stephi had to pause to hold back the sob "Something has happened between us but I just can't go into it here, can you come get me?" she finished having to force out the words.
"I'll be right there Lexi promised with growing concern
"Thanks" Stephi said tiredly "I will see you soon" she finished as she hung up with a sigh.
She heaved out an exhausted sigh as she sat down on the busy train.

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"Jordan you have to go" Chad said in frustration as he sat on the bed
"Like fuck I do" Jordan hissed  from his prone position
"We came all the way to New York for you to perform goddamn it" Chad all but screamed down at him.
"I don't give a fuck what we came for I'm not doing it" Jordan snarled with a vicious grin
"J, listen" Joe began "I know this is hard to deal with but we have a commitment"
"Fuck commitment, Fuck shows, fuck life and fuck you guys, get the fuck out" Jordan snapped rolling over.
Joe made a motion to the door with his head at Chad.
"I will make your excuses then" Chad said to his back "but I won't do it again"
"Looks like you won't have a lot to do then" Jordan snapped grinning triumphantly.
Chad let out a frustrated scream and walked out.
Joe walked over to the bed and sat down.
"What the fuck are you still doing here" Jordan hissed not even bothering to look at him.
"Listen J, we have been through a lot of shit together and we will get through this" Joe said patting his arm.
"Save your fucking sympathy for someone who give a shit" Jordan said rolling over
Joe pushed to his feet angrily "Well you know what, if you want to throw your entire life and career away on a damn mistake that you made rather than try to fix it then go the hell on" Joe spat out at him "I can't make you be a man" he said as he headed out the door.
Jordan rolled over and stared at the ceiling. He felt so lost and alone. He could feel a gaping hole in his heart growing bigger and there was little he could do to stop it. He pulled out his cell phone and dialed her number in desperation.
"Hey you've reached Stephi with Z International, sorry I missed you but leave all the usual stuff and I will get back with you" The beep sounded in his ear.
"Steph,baby  look I know this is messed up but I am going to fix it" he sighed "Just give me a chance and it will be all better I promise" he all but pleaded. He let out a frustrated grunt as he  closed the phone. This was no good. She wasn't talking to him and probably wouldn't until he actually made good on his word. He sighed. He couldn't perform. How could he go out there with a hole through him? Why would he bother even walking out there when he knew that she wouldn't be out there, wouldn't be supporting him. He sighed deeply. This was no good. He couldn't just lay here and wallow in his own shame and guilt. It had been his own fault. He had no one to blame but himself. He wished he could take it all back. He wished he could go back and never make that comment about her. He angrily pounded his fists into the bed. That wouldn't make it better and he knew it. He had fucked this up by thinking for one second that she would always be there no matter what. He was such an ass. How could he have taken her for granted so badly? He had to know where she was. He walked out into the living room and was shocked to see Bubba sitting on the sofa.
"What the fuck  are you doing here?" Jordan  snapped as he leaned on the door jam
"Keeping up with you" Bubba said not looking up from the TV
"I'm not going anywhere so you can go with the guys" Jordan said dismissively