Forbidden Secrets (Completed ✅)

Nineteen

As Steph  entered the boarding gate Jordan  walked over to the windows , watching  the plane. After it  detached and began backing out Jordan  sat down , watching  it taxi off down to the runway. He hung his head in his hands. He couldn't quite deal with the sense  of loss he was now feeling. He hadn't wanted to tell her how he felt   just yet.Not  now and definitely not like that. Jordan hoped they'd both be spouse free. Jordan tried to tell Steph all weekend how he felt but it just kept getting fucked up. He  initially  thought  Steph didn't feel the same way or she would have said something right? . Jordan let out a frustrated sigh as he threw his head back to look up at the ceiling. Damn love was a complicated thing. if anything Jordan was happy  that Chad had given him the excuse to see and talk to her all the time now. Their relationship could grow much stronger now.It pissed him off that Steph   was on her way back to her loveless  husband and life. Jordan knew  he had to go back to his wife and play the perfect happy family .
For now but that's changing he told himself 
For the first time in his life Jordan   dreaded a break from the tour.
Jordan  sighed again as he pushed out of the seat. Shaking his head he made his way back to the parking lot. When he got into the SUV he paused as the scent of her still filled the car. He laid his head back on the head rest and closed his eyes as his mind flashed through the mornings events. He shook his head as he wondered how he was supposed to  keep  up his  charade as the happy loving husband in a marriage that was falling apart.
Wondered how he was supposed to keep his distance when all he wanted to do was just hear her laugh, touch and hold  her . The memory of Steph's  laugh sparked a remembrance of last night, as Jordan  hastily flipped through his CD's  pulling out his first album with the guys . When it started he couldn't help but cringe at the cheesy pop filled  music and the sounds of their young high voices. Jordan  sat there  laughing  as he skipped through the songs. Finding  the one she was singing last night Jordan  smiled.
She was too adorable and funny
he said to himself as he pulled out into traffic.
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"So how was the business trip" Brian asked as he took Steph's bag from her as she walked through  the front  door
"It was good" Steph  replied kissing him on the cheek.
Dreading the point when she was going to have to tell him that she now had another job and that job had to deal with Jordan.
"What is it" he asked her vacant expression
"Nothing" she said with a smile just tired.
She unpacked her suitcase and got back to normal life. The next day they were experiencing a rare evening together and she decided that she better tell him.
"Guess what?" Steph  asked enthusitcally
"What?" Brian replied with raised eyebrows
Steph  took a deep breath "I got a second job" 
"What?" he asked surprised "How did you do that?"
"Well you know I went to Jordan's show two weeks ago" Steph  began to explain trying to hide the shakiness  in her voice
"Yeah" Brian replied  stiffly
Steph  recognized his strained tone
"Well they ran into some problems before the show so I helped out" she paused to watch his reaction.
When he didn't hit the roof Steph  continued "well Chad, Jordan's manager thought I did such a good job he wanted me to help out with the tour this year"

"So basically they going to pay you to lust after Jordan now" Brian  retorted sarcastically
"No!" Steph hissed as her temper flared "they are going to pay me to run the shows" she explained   pushing  up from the chair "and I can still keep my regular job so it will be extra money" she snapped angrily as she  slammed drawers  around  while unpacking  "Besides  I really enjoy it so I am doing it" Steph told him defiantly
"Well then why did you bother telling me?" Brian asked  angrily
"Because I will have to travel a lot. I thought you might miss me when I didn't show up after work" Steph snapped
Brian  snorted angrily
"Okay, OK look" He said putting his hands up "If this is something you want to do then do it" Brian looked  away "Just one more time closer  to me when he gives you a disease" Brian  mumbled as he walked off.
Steph  didn't respond even though the comment made her furious.
He hasn't given me one yet she thought with a satisfying smirk.
Steph  guessed that his reaction could have been worse and decided not to push her luck.
When Steph  was cleaning up from dinner Brian  came up behind her  wrapping  his arms around her waist.
"I am sorry I got so mad" he said lightly at her ear.
Steph angled her head at him. It was the closest he had been to her in weeks and for some reason it made her nervous.
"Its ok, I figured you would be" she put down the pot she was washing , turning  to  face him "I just really enjoyed it" she paused "not because of him, just the work in general" she explained  looking him straight in the eye. It wasn't a lie. She meant it, she really had enjoyed what she did.
Brian sighed "well if you like it and you don't lose your regular job over it then I don't really see the big deal" he said lightly
"Good" Steph  replied  as she placed  her hands on his shoulders. Leaning  up to kiss Brian's cheek she couldn't move fast enough when  he shifted and she got his lips. Guilt tore through her.
He's your husband ! Why do I feel like I'm cheating on Jordan?