Because of you: Never Ever

Why

We just made it home and I realized that I still haven't gotten my stuff from me and Khodie's home. "Reyna do you want to come with me to get my things". "Uh yeah that's fine". "I figured it would go by faster".  "Yeah okay". I put on some sweats and my hair in a bun.  "Have you talked to Khodie at all?". "No why have you?". "I mean yeah she is my friend too". "Yeah but Rey she broke up with me. So technically she broke up with you too". "Thats a little petty don't you think?". "Nope not at all".

Reyna decided that she was gonna do the driving. We rode to me and Khodie's house I brought for us when she was in the hospital. I unlock the door and I walk inside and Spechelle ran up to me and Reyna walked in behind me. I hear some sounds coming from our living room. I moved Spechelle out of the way. I tipped toed down the hall way to the living room. I walked in the room and Khodie was fucking a bitch. "What kind of shit is this". I pushed her so I could see the bitch. Cymia?

"Hey Janai would you like to join?" She pulled her dress down and smiled at me and I slapped the pissed out of her. "So you fucking this hoe now Khodie? It hasn't even been four days". "Hoe? Who you calling a hoe? Bitch".

"Listen Janai it ain't even like that". "Then what is it like Khodie?". "I just wanted some pussy". "So she is a hoe great". "Look bitch call me a hoe one more time".

"Or what? What you gonna do? Hoe?". "You just mad because she got tired of you and moved on to me". "Bitch please". She was cutting up popping off at the mouth. "I'm tell you this one time. You can leave". "Oh I'm not going any where. If Khodie wants me here I'm going to stay here". "I said you can leave". I pushed her to floor and I grabbed her by her hair and I drugged her out the house. "Ahh let me go. Stop pulling my hair bitch". She kept screaming and I shut the door and locked it in her face.

I took a deep breath and I ran back to the living room and I slapped this shit out of Khodie. "Really this is how you do me?". "We are over". "I came to get my shit and you fucking that bitch. That's so disrespectful. I wish I've never met you". "Janai let's just get your stuff and go". "Lets go so I can get this bitch out of my life".

We rushed and packed my stuff and put it in the car. I went back in to get Spechelle and I looked at Khodie one last time. "I hope your happy with the decision that you've made". I picked my dog up and I tossed her the key and I left and went back to Reyna's house.

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I can't believe I got caught fucking Cymia. I mean she came over to hang and she started to rub on me and one thing lead to another. I never intended for Janai to see me with Cymia.

Bruh I swear I can not be happy at all. I text Cymia and apologized for every thing. Then I get a call from Reyna. "Yes?". "What were you thinking Khodie?". "I don't know Reyna. Cymia came over to hang out I didn't think nothing of it. Then one thing led to another. I didn't mean to hurt Janai I promise I didn't". "You've been hurting her a lot lately just leave her alone for a while so you both can heal and get over this. Maybe later down the road you guys can be friends".

"Okay I guess I can do that? Will she staying with you?". "Um yeah I think so". "Will you still be my friend even though me and Janai aren't together?". "Of course I will plus I'm dating your best friend so I can't avoid you". "Yeah true  okay well  I will talk to you later". "Okay call me or text me if you need anything or just to talk okay". "Alright bye".

I guess I'm gonna keep the house but do I really want to stay here. I went to then bathroom and I ran the shower. Instead of standing I sat in the shower. The water was going down my face. Everything remind me of Janai even this shower. We made love in this shower. I started to cry to myself. I will never have the love of my life.  Maybe? I do need to move. I need a fresh start.