Because of you: Never Ever

I Hate You!

I pounded on Val's door. I was crying like I was in pain. Valerie opened the door she was in shorts and bra. "Hey Janai what's wrong with you? Come on in". I walked inside and I wrapped my arms around her waist as I cried on her chest. "She's a monster Val. A monster". A white girl with dark brown hair in her bra and panties walked out. "Um what's going on Val" the girl said. "Give me a second".

"Um I'm sorry but can you please leave". "And who are you?". "Bitch get out of here". "Val who is this?". I snatched her by her hair and I pushed her out of the door and locked it. "Was that really called for?". "I just want to be alone with you". She ran her hand through her curly hair. "What's going on Janai? What's got you so upset".

"Valerie she killed her own mother". "What? Who did". "Khodie she killed her mom". "And do you honestly believe little ole Khodie could possibly do something like that".

"I didn't but it's true? How could she not tell me this.. like that's something you tell someone in the beginning of a relationship not after you spend months together or after you propose to someone. She didn't even tell me her sister exposed her". "Maybe you should talk to her". "No I don't want to see her".

"Well I think you should.. maybe wait till you calm down a little". "Okay.. can we just go to sleep". "Yeah come on". She grabbed my hand and took me to her room and she handed me an oversized white tshirt. I laid by her and I just looked at her. "Thanks for talking to me". "Thanks for confiding in me". "Good night". "Night".

*****
I was in rage. Why would my sister say those awful things about me. Especially in front Janai. Janai looked scared of me. I ran inside up the stairs to her room. I saw her and dad hugging. As soon as he let her go I pushed her on the floor.

"What the fuck is wrong with you. Why would you do that. You just messed the best thing in my life up". I got on top of her and held her arms over her head.

"Oh please that's never gonna work. Your absolutely crazy. Your out of your mind. Sooner or later she's going to notice".

"I'm not crazy", I slapped her. "I'm just as scarred as you. I watched our mother die when I was just a kid. Do you even know how I felt".

"Oh Please! Whatever! She's dead because of you".

"I hate you..so much".

"I hate you.. you mother killer". She then spat in my face. I instantly head budded her super hard and then I punched her in the face. We were fighting like really going in.

Our dad jumped in pulling us apart. "Now y'all stop this foolishness. Right now".
"You stupid bitch I can't stand you I wish we weren't sisters".
"Yeah ditto" I flipped her off as I grabbed my keys and left and went home.

I walked inside our home and Spechelle ran up to me. I smiled and picked her up. "Bae?..Baby?.. Janai" I was looking around the house for her I couldn't find her. I just sat on the bed and I looked up at the ceiling and I cried. I mean that real cry that ugly cry.

I can't believe this. My sister is so devious. I have to think of something to get Janai back. She might not even want me back after this. Which made me cry more.
I just cuddled Spechelle and laid down I couldn't sleep.