Because of you: Never Ever

Awkward beginning's

I walked out the bathroom and took a deep breath I wanted to cry after seeing Khodie. I walked back up to my husband and he held me. Tears started to fall from my eyes. I quickly tried to wipe them away. Curse these pregnancy hormones they make everything more dramatic. "Hey what's wrong?". "Nothing just I'm happy. I love you so much".  "Awe I love you too". He hugged me tight.

I couldn't tell him the real reason why I was crying. He doesn't even know about Khodie or me dating women. I plan on keeping it that way. I just want to enjoy life with my baby and my husband. I haven't even had an episode since I left Khodie alone. Maybe this is what is better for me.

The DJ announced Reyna's name as she walked in the place looking fabulous as hell. That's my best friend. She walked up to Ryan and gave him a kiss. We walked over to them. "Happy Birthday Rey". "Thanks Channing". "Best friend you looking good". "Thanks boo. You look great".  "Thanks well you know I got you a gift but it's at my house it's big". "Really I can't wait to see it". "Yeah well you enjoy your birthday".

Everyone was dancing and eating and drinking and having a good time. All of sudden the music stop and Ryan was on the stage and the spot light was on him. "Reyna baby I just wanted to say happy birthday. You are an amazing woman you love me through all my faults. Your my best friend and my soul mate I don't want anyone but you so I ask you will you marry me". He kneeled on one knee in front of Reyna. I was speechless and I know Reyna was flabbergasted we weren't expecting all of this.

"Yes Yes Yes I'll marry you". She was jumping up and down and she kissed him. Awe I'm so happy for my best friend. Everyone is going to have a happily ever after. I walked over to her and I saw Khodie giving her a hug and Cymia next to her. Even now this girl rubs me the wrong way.

"Congrats I'm so excited for you to start the next chapter of your life Rey". "Thanks I can't wait to be like you and a Channing". "Marriage isn't easy but we make it work". I felt arms wrapped around my belly. "Baby?". "Yes my sexy husband". I looked up at him. "You ready to go I have work in the morning and we have dinner with your parents tomorrow at jay alexanders". "Oh yeah we do huh. Well Rey come by the house tomorrow to get your present. You have a good night don't turn up to much". "Okay and Thanks again for coming y'all". I held Channing's hand as we left.

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I gave Reyna a hug to congratulate her on the engagement. Then Janai walked up to us and she hugged her too. Cymia held my hand and I let her hand go. I watched Janai walked off with her husband. I told Ryan I was leaving. I grabbed my keys out of my pocket and I left. I forgot to tell Cymia I left but she will realize sooner or later.

I got home and I threw my keys on the counter and I walked to my bedroom and I plopped down on the bed. I started to cry to myself. Who knew I still had super hard feelings for Janai like that. I mean I know I wasn't completely over her. Seeing her now just put things in to perspective for me. I'm still in love with her. Still to this day.

I felt someone hit the back of my thigh. "So you just leave with out telling me". I rolled over on to my back and I wiped my face. "What's wrong with you? Why are you crying?". "Nothing I don't want to talk about it". "Please tell me this have nothing to do with Janai. Matter of fact I know it is because you wouldn't even hold my hand when she was around today. You completely left me hanging". "Look I'm sorry okay things just got out of control".

"Your the one that's out of control. She doesn't care about you obviously. She happy with her husband and her baby on the way". "Well I'm entitled to my feelings". "Yes you are but over some high school sweetheart likes we are grown now and obviously she's out grown you. But you love me and I love you and we got each other right". "Yes Cymia I love you". "And I'm going to be down for you no matter what".

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We got home and I put on some shorts and one of Channing's shirts and we laid in the bed together  and started to look up baby stuff. We have to start work on the nursery. I think I'm gonna paint it tomorrow.

"I'm really happy for Reyna babe". "Me too I'm happy she found someone that's down for her and not crazy". "Yeah but are you gonna tell me the real reason why you were crying?". "I'm just the happiest I've ever been in life". "Seriously?". "Yes I just get a little bit more emotional now that I'm pregnant".

"Hmm okay you just never cry out the blue. I just wanted to know if anyone messed with you or anything". "No! No one messed with me bae. Just like I said it's just my hormones and my emotions right now are crazy". "Okay I'm going to believe you". "Okay babe we both have to work good night". "Night".

The next morning I woke up and I wasn't feeling well.  I out on some socks and I got up and made my husband breakfast and his protein smoothie and I prepared his gym bag. I was leaning over on the counter. "Good morning gorgeous". He kissed the back of my head and rubbed the sides of my back. "Morning". "What's wrong?". "I'm just not feeling good right now". "You not going to work right". "No not really feel up to it. I can work on packing the paintings and stuff and ship them off. Plus Reyna is coming to help". "Okay well I have to get going I got some meetings but call me if you need anything".

"Okay I love you". "I love you to the moon and back". He grabbed his stuff and left. I started working on the slips for the boxes and the door open. "Best friend where are you?". "In my office". Reyna walks in and Khodie was right behind her. The actual fuck is she doing here right now. Why is she in my house.