Because of you: Never Ever

Betrayed

Uh i don't know what to do? After what happened at the cookout yesterday I don't know if I can even be in the same room as Khodie. I texted Reyna to come over so we can talk while my husband is out.

We were sitting on my bed eating ice cream. "So what's been up. You been kind of a-wall". "I think I want Khodie back". She just looked at me, "What? Like it's just that easy?". "Look I've been thinking long and hard about this what if I can truly be happy with the one I love". "So you don't love Channing anymore?". "No I love him and I will always love him. I mean he's the father of my child I will have nothing but love for him. Let's be honest for a minute he was the rebound guy". "Yes he was!".

"My dad forced us to have a shotgun wedding when I told him I was pregnant. My dad didn't want people to look down on him. I didn't say I want to marry him. Even though it's been great and he's a great guy but he's not who I dreamed of being with". "So tell me what you wanna do?". "I can't keep fighting my feelings. I know it's going to be hard but I want Khodie back I love her and I'm still in love with her". "Damn still" she laughed. "Let's just say she's got an affect on me. Plus I kept seeing that Channing kept checking out Khodie's stepsister Ella".  "Well I'll help any way I can". "Thanks your the best". "Well I'm your best friend".

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"Cymia come on talk to me please". She was packing her stuff and walking around the house and I kept following her. "Cymia bae please say something". "You know I guess I thought I was the lucky one because you wanted me. You did me dirty like you did Janai with me. Your nothing but a user. You use people until you get tired and you move on". "That's not true". "Yes it is. It's your world. It's Khodie's world and your not gonna stop until you hurt everyone you love".

She grabbed her bags and she was heading out the door, "Here's some advice do what makes you happy. Don't do anything because you feel pity for someone. Like if you really didn't want to be with me. You could have been upfront with me in the beginning instead of leading me on and playing with my heart and emotions". "I'm really sorry Cymia". "Don't worry you will get what's coming to you because my bitch karma is real and she's coming for you".

She shut the door in my face. I ran my fingers through my hair. I low key laughed at the whole situation.

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After Reyna left I went to my husbands office to do some work. I couldn't stop thinking about how I was gonna break this all down to him. I was on the internet and I seen the messages was showing twenty on the app on the iMac.

I clicked it and once I opened it I regretted it. My husband was texting a woman named Amy. He was talking about how gorgeous she was and how much he missed her and that he wished he could have stayed longer on his trip and that he loved her and there baby boy.
I was speechless like it's like I don't even know him.

I'm pissed off like so pissed why would he do this. I rubbed my belly and I got up and went down stairs and he was on his iPhone smiling and then he looked up at me and shoved his phone in his pocket. "Hey my beautiful wife". He tried to come and kiss to me but he stopped him.  I just stared at him. "Who is Amy?". "What?". "Amy the girl your texting. You know you should unsync your phone from your computer. I read it all you lying piece of shit".  "Listen I couldn't tell you. Your dad would have killed me". "So you cheat on me". "She's the mother of my son. She was my girlfriend when I was in the military".

"Why couldn't you just tell me that". "Because..". "Because why? You love her or something". "Yes and I love you too". I felt my blood pressure rising. I held my belly. I started to feel some pains. "This is some disrespectful shit. I want a divorce". "No please". "Why not I don't want this and clearly you dont". "Your dad will kill me". "I want a divorce and I'm telling my daddy all about you you liar and I want you to get your stuff and get out of my house". "Your house?". "Yes my house". "Since when it's your house I pay the bills in here too". "Okay well. I'm just angry and I want you to leave. I could have been with the love of my life this whole time. I was being faithful to your stupid ass and I'm unhappy with this relationship". We kept screaming at each other.

My breathing became shorter and heavier. I held my belly as the pain got sharper and I got extremely hot and my head went fuzzy and I fell to the floor.

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My phone was ringing so much. Reyna and Ryan was blowing my phone up. I called Ryan back.

"Yo what's up Sauce?". "Get down here to the hospital. Janai passed out it's not looking to good for her right now". "I'm on my way".