Red and White Flags || Oliver Sykes

5

"Omg, its funny to run into you guys here." Cassie says.

"Haha, yeah. Cassie, am I right?" Matt Kean asked.

"Yes, omg, you remember my name? This is so amazing."

"Hey, is there any chance you guys want to hang with us?" Lee asked.

"What?" Oli asked, obviously confused at why lee offered .

"Yeah, I mean, you seem like a really big fan, so why not."

"She's under aged, and plus it's late. It's probably past her bed time anyway." Oli said.

A part of me wanted to leave, but another part of me need to see him.

"She's stayed up later then this, we'll hang out with you guys." I said. Everyone seemed happy, except for Oli. It made me frustrated that he tried to turn us away. He wanted to see us, but now he doesn't even want to hangout.

We walked to their tour bus and talked there.

"This place is so amazing. I want to live on a tour bus." Cassie said.

"It's actually not that comfortable than living in your own house." Matt Nicholls says. "Hey, how about me and Jordan show you around for a little bit. Only if that's okay with you." He said looking at me.

"Sure, that's fine." I said.

Cassie squealed again and went along with them. It was just me, Oli, Lee, and the other Matt. There was an awkward silence between everyone, but Lee broke the silence.

"You seem very lovely today Natalie. How have things been?"

"Thanks Lee. Things been alright. Cassie finishes the eighth grade next week."

"Wow, she's in the eighth grade already? It's seems like she was just born." Matt added.

"Well you miss a lot when you just get up and leave." I said, obviously stating that towards Oli, who was just sitting there, staring at the floor. Lee and Matt both got silent, but then decided to leave me and Oli alone.

"We'll leave you two alone since you obviously need to sort things out. Just don't bite each other's heads off." Matt said. They then left the both of us in the lounge area.

Oli was still staring at the floor, which just angered me.

"Is that all you're going to do. Just stare at the damn ground. Your daughter is in the same fucking bus as you, and you just chose to stare at the ground she walks on?"

"I'm sorry Natalie."

"Sorry, you're sorry? Sorry for leaving me for thirteen years, sorry for leaving your daughter? Sorry doesn't cut it Oliver Scott Sykes."

He finally made eye contact with me. I could see the tear rolling down his cheek. He seemed so hurt, but I couldn't let him get to me. He left me.

"I'm truly sorry Natalie. You don't understand. I'm sorry for leaving you and Cassie behind, I'm sorry for never calling. I'm sorry for everything. Just please give me a chance?"

"Give you a chance so that you can just leave us again? I don't think so." But I do want to give him a chance though. I want us to be a happy family, but does he even love me. He's been gone for thirteen years. He probably already found another girl.

"Listen, I know that you're angry and all, but think about Cassie. She needs a father in her life."

"She's needed one when she was born, but that obviously never happened." I stood up out of frustration. It was silent for a little bit, but Oli finally spoke up.

"Has she ever asked about me?"

"Yes, plenty of times."

"What did you tell her?"

"Nothing. I told her that she'll find out once she's old enough. She would always get mad at me though, she once thought she didn't even have a father, which is pretty much true."

"She's grown up so much. I was surprised that she actually listened to our band. I thought she would b like you and hate this music." We both let out a small little chuckle.

"No, she actually really love you guys. If it wasn't for her liking this band, I wouldn't have came to see you."

Oli walked over and hugged me. I wanted to push him off, but I also wanted this. This hug made me realize how much I really missed him. He smelt of axe and a little hint ofsweat. He was taller than me, but not too tall. I rested my head on his chest, and listened to his heart, which was starting to beat fast. This reminded me of how I used to just listen to his heart beat back when we were young. His heart still fluttered every time I touched him.

"You know, I miss this. I miss having you in my arms."

I totally forgot what I was doing until he spoke. I couldn't show that I gave in, I'm strong. He can't just win his way back by hugging me. I quickly pushed him away and backed up. He looked shocked and hurt that I did this.

"I need to get Cassie." I said walking to the back of the bus.

I found Cassie in the back with the rest of the boys. They were just talking about the band and all theirachievements.

"Come on Cassie, it's time to go." I said. Everyone looked at me, and they all seemed worried.

"Are you okay mom? You're crying."

I didn't notice that I was crying until now. I quickly wiped my tears. "Yes, I'm fine. Now let's go. It's late." She gives all the boys hugs and tells them goodbye. They all seemed like they already got attached to her, which warmed my heart. We walked out to the front, and Cassie gave Oli a hug. He hesitated a little, but hugged her back. He held onto her for a while, taking in the moment. You could tell that she was his daughter from this hug. He finally let go, and Cassie and I walked out. We walked to the car and drove off.

"What happened mom? Why are you crying?"

"Nothing Cassie, it's nothing."

"Did Oli say something mean to you?"

"No, no. It was just my.. my uhh, allergies. My allergies flared up and it made my eyes started to water. That's it."

"Okay." She said. I knew that she probably didn't believe that story, and that she was going to ask even more questions in the morning. The car ride was silent, with just the low mumble of the radio, and the small snores from Cassie. Everything that happened tonight kept flooding into my head. He can't just hug his way back into our life, but Cassie also needs to know who her father is. Why is everything so complicated? I want him in our life's, but what if he gets up and leaves again? I felt a tear drop out of my eye. Good thing Cassie was asleep.

We finally arrived at the house, and Cassie woke up. She tired.y walked to her room and feel asleep in the same outfit she wore to the concert. I was way too tired to take a shower, so I did the same thing. I laid down and and cuddled onto my pillow. I wouldn't have to do this if Oli was with me. I needed to make my mind up about him. Do I want him in my life, or do I not?