Red and White Flags || Oliver Sykes

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I woke up to the clinging of a belt being put on. I turned around to see Jacob getting dressed.

"Oh, sorry babe. I didn't mean to wake you." He said, kissing me on the forehead. He smelled really good, he must've already taken a shower.

"Are you leaving?" I asked.

"Sadly, I am. I have an interview with this company."

"Wait, you're not working at the school anymore?"

"No, I'm still working at the school. This interview isn't for a job, it's for my apartment complex. I'm seeing if I can upgrade to a bigger one."

"Okay. I'll see you later?"

"Yes, I'll stop by and hang out with you and Cassie." He kissed me on the lips and then left.

I still feel guilty from last night. I stopped things all because I realized that I still have feelings for my ex. He moved on and so did I, but yet why do I wish that it was Oli making love to me and not Jacob? Why do I imaging kissing Oli when I kiss Jacob? I was supposed to move on from Oli and date Jacob. Why am I such a confusing person? I can't choose who I want to be in my life. First it was Curtis, then Oli, then Jacob, and now I want Oli again. Maybe I've always wanted Oli.

I glanced at my phone to see if I had any missed calls. I only had a few notifications from Instagram and some games. I picked up my phone, scrolled through my block contacts, and found Oli's number. I wanted to call him so bad. I wanted to hear his voice. I unblocked his number and pressed call. I was supper nervous as the phone ranged. What if he doesn't answer? What if he has my number blocked? What am I even going to say? The phone stopped ringing, and I heard a voice come from the other side. It sounded like Jordan.

"Natalie, hey! What a surprise to have you call." Jordan said. It was pretty loud where he was, so I'm assuming they are either at a party, club, or some concert. I was also surprised that Oli still had my number.

"Hey Jordan. I, ummm... where's Oli?"

"Oh, that bastard? I have no idea. He told me to hold his phone for a little bit, and then he just left me. I can search for him if you want."

"Yeah, that would be cool."

"Hey, may I ask why you're calling?"

"I um... I don't even know. I just.. I really just.."

"You wanna hear his voice?"

"Yeah, how did you know?"

"Just a guest. To be real here, Oli felt horrible when you guys both broke up, or whatever happened. He was always depressed, and I just hated to see him like that. Then lee remembered this girl, Alissa, that he was friends with, and he called her to hook up with Oli. Now Oli and Alissa are dating."

"I know, I saw all over Instagram about their new relationship." I rolled my eyes.

"Yeah. They're cute and all, but I honestly really like you and Oli together. It seems like Oli is just using Alissa as a replacement for your love."

I smiled to myself. Oli still loves me.

"But how do you know?"

"Well, every time she's gone, he still seems sad. He still seems like something isn't right. I try asking him what's wrong and he just starts drinking. Oh, he also became a really bad alcoholic. He drinks all the time, and he gets very emotional when he's drunk."

"Damn, its that bad?"

"Yeah, hold on love." He paused for a moment, and I heard him talk to someone for a little bit. "I found him, here he is."
I heard a laugh, Oli's laugh.

"Hello?"

"Oli?"

"Yeah, that's me. Who is this?"

"It's um..me, Natalie." There was a little pause, and then I heard him sigh.

"Hey Natalie, what's up?"

"Nothing much really. I just wanted to talk."

"Okay, what do you want to talk about?" I tried to think of something to talk about, but I couldn't think of something.

"Well you see, that's the problem. I don't know what to talk about. I don't even know why I'm calling you. I guess I really wanted to hear your voice, if I had to be honest." I heard him laugh a little to hisself.

"If I'm being honest, I wanted to hear your voice too."

My eyes lit up and my smile grew. He really did miss me. I then thought to myself. Jordan said that he was getting drunk all the time. What if he's drunk, and everything he's saying is a lie?

"Oli, are you even sure about that? I mean, you're probably drunk."

"Natalie," he sounded a little hurt " I'm not drunk, I didn't drink anything because I have a lot to do tomorrow. I can say the same thing about you because you obviously moved on quickly."

"What, how did you know?" I never told Oli or any of his friends anything about Jacob.

"Well.... I.... I may have asked Cassie's boyfriend to see if you moved on, and he told me everything. I'm really sorry love. I just needed to know, and since you did move on, I did too. The problem is that I can't move on. I thought I could, but I still miss you. I still miss being with you."

A tear forced its way through my eyes and onto my cheek. I'm kinda pissed that he used Ethen to check on me, but I also can't believe that he still loves me.

"I miss being with you too. I realized how much I missed you last night when.... well..."

"When what?" He asked. His voice was soft.

"When we almost had sex, but I stopped it because I was thinking about you." My cheeks were super red. I was so glad that he couldn't see me.

"Haha, you were thinking about me; You're so dirty minded. What exactly were you thinking about?" I could just imagine him smirking and running his hand through his hair. His mind is running through all of the dirty things that I could've been thinking about.

"I'm not telling you. Plus, you're probably imagining it already."

"Oh, I'm thinking about a lot, and it's honestly getting me a little worked up."

I blushed even more then I was before, which is impossible since I was already red as hell. I never knew that I still had that effect on him.

"Oli! Aren't you like, out in public?"

"Not anymore. I moved to an empty room. I really want you Natalie, badly." I can here the lust and love in his voice.

"You would have to fly me up there then, but that would take a long time. I guess you would just have to use your hand." I said with a huge smirk on my face. I love having this control over him, but I just wish I was there.

"Fuck, I wish you were here to take care of this for me, but I guess I would have to do it myself."

"Not on the phone Oli." I laugh, but I kind of want him to do it.

"I wasn't going to. I'll just think of things to make it go down. It was nice talking to you."

"It was nice talking to you too, bye Oli."

"Bye Natalie."

He hung up the phone. My face was still red and hot, and I noticed that my underwear was wet. I guess I was getting worked up too over Oli. It was amazing to hear that Oli still feels the same way about me, but what am I going to do about Jacob? He is really into me, and I can't break his heart like that.