i spent the whole entire night sitting besides Tyler in his bed. he didn't wake up, but Jenna and Sarah told me that was normal everytime they came to check on him. occasionally he would move in his sleep, which i wish was a sign of him waking up.
at times he didn't move for hours which only made me think Tyler slipped into a coma; which is infact something that could have or could happen. he could slip into a coma any second and be in it for who knows how long. or he could be in it forever and never come out of it.
but i obviously hope that isn't the case.
i lift my head up from Tyler's lap an glance over at the clock that's on the wall. it reads 3:00am, but it feels like it's been forever. just waiting, over and over again just for him to wake up. the only sound that filled the room was the heart monitor, the clock, and Tyler's breathing. i turn my head back to him an look at his pale sleepy face. it's a beautiful one, oh yes very beautiful in fact.
i rest my head back down on his lap an close my eyes, one of my hands in his and the other on his knee. it's completely silent, peaceful even.
"hey Joshie."
i open my eyes slowly an look up to see dark chocolate eyes looking back at me, through squinting, tired eyelids. a weak and small, but happy, smile crosses his face as he gives my hand a light squeeze back. i sit up from his lap an look at him; i'm in awe and amazement, a million different emotions all at once.
he is awake. Tyler is awake.
"hey Babyboy," i squeeze his hand an give him a warm smile, "how you feelin'? i missed you alot."
i reach forward an put my hand on his cheek, my thumb moving across his soft skin an over to his chapped lips. he turns his head to the side an kisses my hand, hips lips lingering on my skin for a few seconds.
"i missed you too Joshie." he said quietly.
we didn't say much for a few, and that was perfectly okay. he was awake, and that's all that i ever wanted in this moment was for him to wake up. we stared at eachother for a bit, his eyelids drooping every so often from still being tired.
"you know you're beautiful Ty. even all wrapped up in bandages and wires an tubes an all."
he giggled a bit an swapped his hand at me when i said the compliment, but the blushing on his face told me a different story.
"even when i'm sick Joshie?" he spoke a little louder.
"yes, Tyler, even when you are sick," he smiled at me before closing his eyes again, "i'm happy you're awake Ty."
he opened one of his eyes to peek out at me and gave me a little smile again. he loved seeing me, it was very obvious that just the sight of me, even my presence gave him joy. it's a great feeling knowing that all you have to do is being there in order to make someone happy.
"i couldn't really tell i was sleeping even though i know was. it's a weird feeling, like i felt like i was awake the whole time. i had dreams, well, it was like a huge big dream that lasted since i went under anesthesia before surgery. it was a nice dream too. you an me, we aren't sick and we live in our own home. we have dogs and everything we could want, we both don't need to work because we have enough money, from somewhere. i don't know."
he stopped talking an looked back up at me, as if asking me for permission to keep on talking.
"keep goin' Babyboy, i'm listening to you. don't worry." i smiled at him before leaning over to kiss his hand. his face grew red again before speaking up to finish what his dream had been about.
"it was beautiful, really. we didn't have to come here for check ups and we didn't need surgery. like i said, we weren't even sick. an it was wonderful. our dogs they were named, get this. Johnny and Ruby. isn't that funny? who names their dogs like that. and, we even had hair! Joshie your hair was bright yellow, like, really really yellow! and we went to concerts and played music together. i think we even made a song, i can't really remember. i think it was called something on to you. i can't think of it right now."
he stopped talking, and spoke like he was out of breath. which he was, he was talking real fast and real slow. which could of taken every bit of energy out of him. who knows really.
"sounds like you have some good dreams, huh Ty Baby? i squeezed his hand an stared into his tired eyes. he nodded before closing his eyes again, his lips pulling into a lovely weak smile.
"you're the love of my life Joshie."
i stand up slowly an lean over him, placing my lips onto his. not to much though, he can barely breath as it is. i sit back down an his cheeks are filled with red, just as i expected.
"you're the love of my life too Tyler."
we didn't speak afterwards. Tyler fell back to sleep, an i soon did afterwards even though i was allowed to sleep in here. i wasn't allowed to stay in here till 3:00am either. but i did. i didn't want to leave Tyler's side after what had just happened. though nothing bad had happened, i was still scared that something would happen. but everything was fine. everything was in place as it should be. Tyler is alive an well, and i am healing with my boyfriend besides me.
everything is perfect, actually. despite the cancer, hospital, countless types of medicine, an surgery, everything feels just like it should.
perfect.
yeah, absolutely perfect.
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sorry for such a filler, i feel like its boring too. everything will get more interesting, im just trying to progress the story somewhat. i have ideas, i have ALOT. i hope you all are enjoying this story as much as i am :)
ALSO
im posting all of my Tour De Columbus videos and pictures on my instagram, which is _tyjo.dunseph :)
