i woke up fairly early, due to the sound of clothes being moved around and the light squeaking wheels of an IV stand moving. though, i didn't open my eyes right away. i decided to sit and listen to the commotion in the room, assuming it's Tyler. which it is, because why on earth would there be a random patient running throughout my room.
my eyes flutter opening slowly, allowing my eyes to adjust to the light. i move under the white covers, lifting one hand up to rub the sleep away from my tired eyes.
"hey Babyboy, whatcha up too?"
Tyler jumps, slightly startled from hearing my voice so suddenly.
"oh! hi Joshie, i didn't wake you up, right?," i shake my head 'no' and sit up, "well, i'm just putting some clothes aside. for the whole thing that's happening- oh! i forgot to tell you, right?"
i laugh and nod, waving him over to come and sit besides me. he gives me a child-like smile. he yanks his IV stand behind me as he runs over to my bed. he jumps onto it an crawls into my lap, untangling the various tubes and wires.
"okay so, that note i left on your table. and so, what that really means is" he trailed the 's' of the word for a few seconds, which drove me absolutely crazy.
"oh c'mon Ty, say it already, please?" i wrapped my arms around him and tickled his back, before moving my hands over to his sides, immediately causing Tyler to break into laughter.
"okay, okay! Joshie s-stop!," he laughed in between words, stopping as i removed my fingers from his body, "okay so, i mentioned to you awhile ago how i wanted to have a wish granted. y'know, the wish most sick kids get. well, the reason why i was gone yesterday was exactly because of that. they're giving me a wish; i get to go away to any place i choose for a week or so. but only once they see me getting better or atleast not showing any sign of improvement. so, aslong as i am improving, i get to go next week."
a huge smile grew across my face, and my first reaction was to wrap my arms around him and pull him into a big hug. i was happy for him, oh, i was so happy for him.
"and Joshie, i want you to come with me. please? it would basically be me and you, and Jenna and Sarah since we would need our doctors with us just in case. but we would get our own room and we could do whatever we want while Jenna and Sarah do what they want. they wouldn't really follow us, we would just have them on speed dial just if we need them."
i put my hands on both sides of his face and pulled his towards mine, fixing my lips against his. i felt him smile against my lips just before he pulled away.
"i take that as a thank you Joshie?"
"yes yes yes, a million times yes! thank you Tyler, this is amazing!" i wrapped my arms around him once more, squeezing my arms tightly around him.
"where are you deciding to go?"
he sat back on his heels before plopping himself down and crossing his legs, "well, i was sorta thinking maybe Virginia. it isn't too hot but it won't be too cool, and they have a nice beach there and i've always wanted to see a real beach too. the one's here don't count."
he keeps talks on and on about different things he would want to do, and things he wouldn't want to do. and places he would love to see and different things he would want to try.
though he had all of these ideas in mind, it gave me a sense of relief. we would be given a week away from the hospital to act like normal teenagers. we would forget about being sick and we would forget about anything that was even related to medical stuff. it would be beautiful, it would be full of everything we have ever wanted.
eventually Tyler had gotten off of my bed and back onto his, taking a notebook from under his bed to scribble more words into it like he had done numerous times before.
"writin' a song?"
he looked up from the notebook in his lap and nodded at me before leaning back down to continue writing.
he was never really a talker when he wrote songs, though he never really shared the songs he wrote either. but they had alot of meaning into them as i would think. but i really hope one day he would share a song with me. maybe on our Wish Trip.
that's what we planned to call it too; our wish trip.
later on in the evening, Jenna came in to tell us that everything was in place, we had to receive chemo two more times and then have an x-ray done that would be compared with the last, just to make sure nothing was getting worse. but as Jenna told me recently, we've been getting better.
our food was brought to us and we discussed more about the Wish Trip. we would be staying in an apartment-like hotel that would be right on the beach. there was a mall and a waterpark and even a little boardwalk with games and rides.
though, the one thing that has caused a small bit of panic in my mind was the fact that we would have to go on a plane because of how far away it would be. driving would be like a day or two, whereas we could take a plane and be there in a couple of hours. which was the logical thing to do, despite the small amount of risks due to our medical history.
unfortunately though, we would have to go through multiple tests in order to make sure that our current conditions would be suitable for the ride. me more importantly because of the lung transplant from awhile ago.
as time passed throughout the day, night had come about once again. i waved Tyler over so he could sleep with me tonight. and after situating all of the wires and tubes, he snuggled into my side with his arm hooked around my waist. i closed my eyes and prepared to drift off to sleep by the usual sounds that flew throughout the room.
that was though, until Tyler started to sing a small piece of a song he wrote.
"he's the tear in my heart, i'm alive. he's the tear in my heart, i'm on fire. he's the tear in my heart, take me higher. than i've ever been."
his voice faded out towards the end. but just as i was about to ask him to continue, his small snores started to sound.
he is astonishing.
even if he sings when he's half asleep.
astonishing.
