about 5:30 in the morning is when i heard Tyler shuffle throughout the room. the room was still dark, although it was dimly lit by the bathroom light being on. i didn't open my eyes, but instead listened to Tyler as he prepared for our Wish Trip. every so often, his IV stand would clang against the bed or the corner of the bureau, an he would innocently curse at himself; no swearing, of course.
Jenna an Sarah had left a note on the whiteboard on the wall, i seen as i opened one eye carefully. though it was hard to read, i could see that it was a time written, 6:30 to be exact, that we would be leaving for airport.
the thought of traveling made my stomach churn, a slight ping if anxiety flushed through my body, but disappeared as quickly as it came; i realized i would be okay.
i closed my eyes as Tyler came between our beds, taking a few things off of the nightstand that was between the beds. most likely medication bottles, his notebook, and his phone. even if it was a rare occasion that he used his phone. i heard him turn around to leave the space between our beds, but instead i felt the bed sink under the weight of his body. he sat next to me, an i felt his eyes on my face, looking at every feature, every curve or dip that was located on my body that he could see.
i felt the presence of him even more as he placed his hand on shoulder, rubbing it ever so slightly not to "wake" me up. he lifted his hand to my face, rubbing my cheek with his thumb. he leaned down an kissed my forehead, his lips pulling into a smile. he pulled back an brought his hand up to my head, feeling the small bits of hair growing beneath his fingers.
"you're growin' hair Joshie, best that i pack that hair dye. yellow like you wanted," he said sweetly an quietly, "i love you Joshie, i'll let you sleep for a few extra minutes."
the bed lifted up as he got off of it, walking to the bathroom to college more things. presumably body wash an shampoo, as now
both of our hair is starting to fill in again. i never really realized how fast my hair grew until recently. though it isn't long, i can definitely feel some length growing to it.
we were due to be away for a week, though i overhead Jenna and Sarah talking in the halls, saying how if everything is going well we would stay for an extra few days or so. which i hope happens, because i really need to get away for this place. actually get some fresh air for once; i mean, i haven't been outside of this hospital in almost a year. unfortunate.
Tyler was still in the bathroom, gathering more things than we probably need, but he more than likely packed for me due to being so excited. he's been in the hospital longer than i have, so i can only imagine how happy he is to get away from it all for a little bit.
i always wondered why Tyler wouldn't sing for me as often as i would like, because how he sang was absolutely beauteous. he sang in the bathroom, his sweet voice bouncing off of the tiled walls.
"my heart, is my armor, he's the tear in my heart, he's a carver. he's a butcher with a smile, cut me farther. than i've ever been."
he was beautiful; his voice was beautiful, he reminds me of the reasons why i love him. but theres too many to count, he us just solely amazing.
he walked out of the bathroom an over to his bed, placing the bags next to one another. we didn't have much to take because we barely wore different things. we both had a few pairs of shorts an jeans, an mostly tank tops or sweatshirts. which i assume Tyler packed them all, just to be sure. he listened as his IV stand was dragging behind him as he walked over to my bed. the bed was pressed down as he sat next to me once again.
"Joshie, wake up, you gotta get ready soon," he places his hands on me, shaking me ever so slightly, "Joshie wake up, or Wish Trip is today.!" he said a little bit louder. i shifted in place as to show i was waking up. i rubbed my eyes with the backs of my hands an faked yawned.
"why hello Babyboy, nice to see you this morning." i leaned up an kissed him, feeling him smile against my skin again.
he always did that. i loved it.
i looked around the room to see exactly what i thought; Tyler had our bags ready an packed to leave, even though we had a half hour left until we had to leave for the airport.
"im a little nervous Joshie, airports make me nervous." he said in a little child's voice. he pouted a but, until i pulled him down ontop of me. he had his legs on either sides of my hips, resting his weight on the top of my thighs.
"wow Joshie, is this a preview of what's to come this week?." he joked with pride an giggled to himself. i was shocked to say the least; Tyler is usually as innocent as he can be, these jokes are always unforeseen.
"Tyler Robert Joseph! you did not just say that right?" he laughed at my sudden remark, before placing his hands on my bare chest.
"m'just wonderin' Joshie." he trailed his fingers on my skin, and looked up at me with a huge grin planted across his face.
"you, Joseph, are very sneaky when it comes to these jokes you know that right?"
he nodded real quick at the confirmation that he was good with these sudden jokes. he leaned down to kiss me before getting off of the bed, walking over to take clothes out of my bureau for me.
"aw Ty, why'd you have to get off of me so quickly,?" i brought a hand up to my forehead, lightly slapping it, "you can be such a tease."
he looked back at me, his face screwed up with confusion.
"um, excuse me Joshua, YOU are the bigger tease."
he wasn't wrong, what could I say.
time had passed some an i had gotten up to change. it was only a matter of time before Sarah an Jenna had come to our room, their bags at the foot of the door.
"hiya boys!," Jenna spoke with cheer in her voice," you both seem more ready than we could have been. let me guess, Tyler packed everything?"
Tyler nodded quickly, acknowledging that yes, he indeed did all the packing. and he was proud of it.
"so boys," Sarah spoke up, "we will be doing something that you boys have been begging for for a very long time."
we were both confused as both of our nurses sat us down on our beds. an too our surprise, which brought alot of joy, they both removed our IVs from our arms; officially disconnecting us from the hospital. we had to keep out chemo ports though, because they were the most difficult to put in and take out, but they didn't bother us anymore.
we had all stood up, looking at one another as we picked up our bags.
"ready to go boys?" Jenna had said with a smile on our face.
me and Tyler nodded, but couldn't turn away from the room we had grown attached too, even though we hated it. we looked back at our room, seeing the beds neatly made an our IV stands next to each of out beds. it looked empty, without our things an without us. but it was a good moment, it was gold.
we walked into the elevator, to go down to the exit instead of up to the chemotherapy room. our nurses checked us out on "vacation leave" for a week and a half, showing that both nurses have caved an were going to let us stay an extra few days.
we stood outside with our bags as a taxi pulled up to the hospital. we took deep breaths, admiring the environment that we haven't seen in what seems like forever. it was shortlived though, as we had put our bags in the back an filed into the car. Sarah in the front, me and Tyler an Jenna in the back.
Tyler had snaked his hand under my own arm, reaching for me hand. i grasped onto his hand an crossed our fingers.
he looked at eachother an kissed before we stared our the windows to admire an see he outside world. it was beautiful.
it was about an hour ride to the hospital, and he hadn't let go of my hand once.
he didn't want me to let go.
and neither did i.
