DAYS OF SUMMER ( Either Moving On Or Giving Up )

Seventeen

"Crying is not always sadness,

It could be joys.

I've always been so fond for tears of joy

They are uniquely simple.

But it contains so many happiness

That want to explode in one."

-Hara's travelling journal page 14

It's my last task. It's pushing drink cart in special set. It's The Chorus film set.

For every PA, it's a dream come true to be assigned in that job desk. For every crews, it's a stair to success.

But for me, it's Ren's message. It's his story. And I also want to check his condition. He didn't call me or text me, for God's sake. I'm his sister. I called him, but he didn't even answer.

The set is almost done, one crew tell me.

I'm wondering the same thing as everyone does. Where's Dean Jeanne? Everyone murmurs that she's in her trailer and she doesn't want to come out.

I glance at Ren who's directing the whole set. He's so amazing. I always want to become just like him.

Ren must feel that someone's watching him, so he turns around and his eyes meet mine. He smiles a bit and gives me 'we'll talk later' sign. I smile. Finally.

Just as the same time, Ren says it's wrapped, Dean Jeanne comes out from her trailer, looking like a mess. She must have been drunk because her walks are wobble and her nose and cheeks are red.

Dean Jeanne is walking towards me. Maybe she needs a tea. Until she actually pushes me because she's hugging me, that I just find out that she doesn't need tea.

"Ack!" We both crash down along with the cart and the drinks continuously are pouring in me.

Suddenly Ren is there, pushing the cart away from both of us. But it's not that Dean doesn't hug me tightly. She hugs me too tight.

Luckily, Jake is around. "Let her go, Dean," he demands her.

Dean finally lets go. But her face is unreadable. Jake is wearing a bomber jacket that time and he wraps it against me.

"Not that jacket!" a stylist cries.

But Jake mostly doesn't care. He waves everyone off and helps me stand up.

"Are you okay, Yuka?" Ren asks me.

I smile. "Don't worry. I'm fine. Are you okay, Miss Jeanne?"

"Dean. Just call me Dean," she says in a small voice.

"Is that something wrong?" I ask her in the same time when Ren shouts, "What the hell?" at her. "Are you crazy? You left for almost the shooting and you just made a scene!" Ren says angrily.

"Shut up," she says. She stares at Jake. "And you too, shut up. All of you just care about Katy. What about me?"

Katherine Ann again. It's sure a serious problem.

"Anyway, you're my personal photographer, right?" she asks me. "We should chit chat. Like in cafe. How about now? I have extra clothes. You can borrow one."

"Eh?" It's just yesterday she was a bit like she didn't like me and now she wants to act like my girl friend?

"You become her personal photographer?" Ren asks me.