DAYS OF SUMMER ( Either Moving On Or Giving Up )

Twenty Three

"Muse is hard to find.

But when you do,

It's actually right in front of you.

With just a simple question,

'Do you like sunflower?'"

-Oliver Ron

Summer is my muse. I just know about it. There are many songs I wrote for her. My favourite is The Deadly Charming. Because you're deadly charming, Summer.

I read it again. There's a shooting going, but it's private. Not everyone can see it. I'm in my room, uploading Jake's photos in the blog.

Wow, I'm Oliver's muse! All these days, he had been like so sweet with me. I lie down, regretting that we never kissed. I'm curious. What if we kissed that time? Not that I think he wanted it.

My phone beeps and beeps. It's so freaking noisy. It's Ryan. Yes, he has my number now.

Ryan : Come on, don't be such a downer. The shooting is done. Just come to the party.

Me : Alright, alright. Now, leave me alone to find my outfit.

I decide to call nana. Nana is super mad that I just call her.

"Are you okay, Summy? Why are you quiet?"

"Do you know that Sail is here?" I ask her.

Nana is quiet, so that's a yes. "It's okay, nana. I'm fine."

"You don't seem to be."

"It's fine. Nana, I'll be okay. I promise. I love you."

I sigh in relief. Now I need to pick my outfit. I don't know what should I wear. I finally pick my white sheath dress with red flowers pattern in the bottom of the dress. It's quiet pretty and I love it. I just have to make sure that I'm not going to dip into the water.

The party is located in the pool, obviously. I look around. The party is already packed up. "Dean is so great at making parties. This is so cool."

"Summer."

I shiver. It's Ren. I miss my brother so much. But I want to be mad at him. I glare at him. "What do you want, Ren?"

Ren sighs. "I know you hate me. But don't treat me like this. We're siblings."

"Half. Just a half," I say and I'm also surprised that I say it. Well, I can't take it back. "Don't talk with me. I'm disgusted to see you."

Ren looks hurt and defeated and I feel so bad. "I'm sorry, Ren. I don't mean it. Just stay away for me first. I need to calm my mind first. In the mean time, just don't talk to me."

I leave him. I feel so bad and want to turn back, but I can't. Ren should hate me. After all, I'm the one thing that is against Katherine. Jake should hate me too, only they don't. I really need to stay away from both of them first. I don't want to involve in Katherine. It's least thing I want to do.

The music starts playing and I see everyone. Monet who stares at me. Sheila and Angel who waves at me. Ren who looks unwell. Dean who looks so angry looking at Jake who's beside Katherine all the time. That's when I see Ryan smiling to everyone. He's sitting beside Dean.

I blink. It's like that time. This music reminds me of him. It's Fate in Blue. Our first song. I met Oliver with this song.

Just like Oliver, Ryan is sitting, enjoying the music. They even tip their heads in the same way.