DAYS OF SUMMER ( Either Moving On Or Giving Up )

Eighteen

"I'm so excited about the news!

Thankfully you also get a job there,

So it means Ren can stay beside you.

I'm so relieved."

-From nana yesterday 12:21 am

"Do you bring sunscreen?" nana asks from the phone. It's the day.

I spent my time yesterday to go shopping for toiletries. I guess at least, if I have a bad day, I could just soak myself in my favourite scent of soap.

I didn't really shop for clothes. Mostly, nana told me to buy coat and gloves. She's afraid that it will be so cold.

Somehow it's so weird. It's Summer, but I get to spend few weeks of my Summer in such a cold city. I love cold whether actually.

Every other interns, the same as I do, are extremely excited. All of us can go aboard in first class along with the stars and other crews, such as director, famous photographer like Carl and Joan, and the AD. The reason why we can go aboard with them is simple. We have to record and take a picture of our stars.

"Hello, Yuka!" someone greets me cheerfully and hugs me from behind.

I'm startled and it turns out to be Dean Jeanne. "Hello, Dean. Um.. I'm not your photographer.. It's rearranged."

"Yeah," she says. "Such a shame. Can you do something for me?"

"Sure," I reply.

Dean quickly gives her cosmetic bag to me. "Please carry it , okay? I just have new nails, so you know?"

"Alright," I say. With that, she just leaves. I sigh in relief. It's good thing that I don't get her. I mean, I could carry all of her stuffs around.

I try to balance with the bag and my camera. It's not that hard, actually. I'm glad that I bring my two cameras, also a Polaroid. I heard it's so beautiful in Rovaniemi. I want to take a picture of it.

"Hello, Summer,"

It's Ryan Carson. "Hey,.. um.."

"Just call me Ryan. Do you need help with those things?"

I shake my head. "No, it's okay, really. Thank you."

"Alright, then."

Wow, I don't know why. Maybe it's Ren doing. He wants me to feel comfortable, so he asks everyone to be nice with me.

Suddenly someone takes the Dean's cosmetics bag from me. I'm almost about to scream when I see Jake. He's wearing a plain white t shirt underneath a plaid bomber jacket. He smiles at me.

Actually I didn't go to the airport with him, Uncle Moon drove me. He was a bit shocked that I have to go because he's so worried about me.

Uncle Moon also gave me a scarf. He kept saying that Rovaniemi is cold, so I have to wear my coat.

Aunt Christa was there too with Hana. She gave me six tea bags so I could drink it with warm water later on. They also told me to call them often.

"So, you know you're going to sit with me, right?" he asks.

I smile. "Yeah, that's weird, right?"

"Actually, not really."

"It's like a dream come true for every interns," I say.

"Apparently not yours."

"I've stayed in your house for days, I guess it's just the same."

"Fair enough," he says.

We pass Dean Jeanne and Jake hands the bag to her. "So, it seems like you're so excited about this trip. You even bring three cameras."

"I heard that Rovaniemi is so pretty."

"Do you bring your violin?" he suddenly asks.

"No, but I have the app in my tab. I'll just use it."

"Why don't you believe that you'll have thousand ideas?"

"Thousand is too much, but I just want to take a break. From music, I guess. I haven't told Ren or my grandparents or my uncle about it. But let's see."

Jake helps me to get into the chair. "Do you want an extra blanket?"

"Not really."

The flight attendant informs everyone that we're going to departure and I feel myself shaking.

"You okay?" Jake asks.

"I'm just afraid of heights. But it's alright."

Jake's hand settles in mine. For a moment, I'm not that afraid. I'm sure that I don't have a crush on him. But I feel my cheeks are burning.

When we're up in the air, Jake lets go of my hand and I start to take a picture of him when he's sleeping. He looks so peaceful.

Ren comes to check on me because he knows that I'm afraid of heights. When he feels that I'm okay, he goes back to sit with the AD. Katherine Ann must sit with another intern who takes her pictures.

I try to sleep too. I want to think about happy thoughts where Hara wouldn't be there.

When I wake up later, Jake is playing games in his tab. He's wearing an earphone and I feel that it's a good position, so I quickly take a picture of him.

Jake blinks for a second when he realizes that I take his picture. "Sorry," I say but he waves me off.

I look at the sky from the window and I think it's so artistic, so I also take a picture of it. I open my bag to grab Oliver's guide book. That's what he called. But this book just contains with his dribbles and unfinished notes. I always love this book. A simple brown leather just like Oliver.

I smile when I see his unfinished notes about Who am I. It's my favourite one of him. I've seen the original finished song before. Oliver really explored his world and it's unique.

"Katy?" I hear Jake's mumbling to Katherine whose seat is across ours. I pretend to sleep because I don't want to disturb them.

"What?" Katherine ask, but her tone is so soft.

"Just checking if you're alright."

Katherine smiles. "Don't worry. I'll be fine."

It's a weird. I've never dated anyone before, but I know the feeling of being in love with someone. And Jake feels that way to Katherine.

Love is weird. It's beautiful to see it.

I love seeing others in love. For a moment, I'm also confused because Ren seems to love Katherine too. It's weird to choose to support one of them. I mean, of course I'll support Ren. He's my brother after all.

The flight is long enough to make me sleepy and sleep for finally. When I awake, I hear that we will soon arrive so I also prepare for the landing because me being afraid of heights obviously. I want to close the journal, but few letter stops me.

THIS IS FOR SUMMER

I almost scream. Oliver wrote something about me and for me! I should have read that a long time ago when the doctor handed me the journal. Finally. At least, now I'll know about him.