Midnights.

Chapter 61 - The anchor necklace.

CHAPTER 61

‘’I still can’t believe I’m here with you.’’ I accidentally speak. Louis just bought me a strawberry ice-cream, which is my favorite ice-cream for all the time. Actually I wanted to purchase it on my own but he kept insisting to just pay the melting Heaven for me. Who will waste this opportunity, ey? Especially, because he is, somehow, still a special someone for me.

‘’Why is so?’’ Louis asks, licking his chocolate ice-cream at the same time.

‘’I don’t know, when I met you again I already told myself not to forgive you.’’ I honestly remark. Louis stops our steps, turning his head around to face me. ‘’Am I that bad?’’

‘’What do you mean?’’ I let out a laugh.

‘’Well, am I that bad so that you planned yourself.. Uh, not to forgive me?’’ By his tone I can tell that he is completely feeling uneasy.

‘’Louis,’’ I take a deep breath. ‘’You better stop questioning. I’m afraid I’ll leave you all alone here if I dig all of your mistakes.’’

‘’Actually I don’t want to, but.. Okay, alright.’’ He finally gives in. I only curl a simple smile- why should I stated that I can’t believe I’m here with him? What does that statement mean, actually? Can’t I believe that I’m here with him because I shouldn’t have apologized him, or because I just didn’t get to imagine that my past prayers can actually go answered?

Minutes pass by, time flies so fast when he’s around. We talk about things, but I’ve safely reassured that I don’t touch the topic about our past. He tries to ask me about my life before this for times, but I only stop and pass him a smile- there’s nothing to discuss about my past.

When I finish my ice-cream I suddenly remember about Eleanor. Eleanor? Eleanor. Why should I think about her when I’m in this ‘intimate’ moment with Louis, like this? Holy crap it is just walking around this Chinese park, but this walking feels more than something. Although Louis had said that we can do ‘anything’ here since she’s not around, I just can’t do it. I feel uneasy, I feel like unwanted by Louis and I just can’t get to be in Eleanor’s place even in this time when Louis actually lends Eleanor’s position to me. One question, are me and Louis dating? No, no. We are by no means dating- stop dreaming too high, Luna.

Louis finishes his ice-cream as well, and I offer him to take a rest first. We’ve been walking around for about 3 hours and yet I don’t feel it at all! But eventually I feel tired too.

‘’Tired? Thought you’re willing to walk around for another 3 hours.’’

‘’Time just gets to fly so fast.’’ I solely respond.

‘’Can we talk about love?’’ Louis suddenly asks, making me turn my head to face him in one second. My heart illogically pounds fast- no, no. Why should it pound anyway? Louis is by no means going to shoot me here.

‘’What?’’ Is all that I can say.

‘’Yeah, our love stories. We’re big already and I believe true love has attached in our hearts.’’

What is this guy talking about? I’m sure my cheeks have grown crimson red right now, with no logical reason.

‘’Oh, yours must be Eleanor.’’ I try to laugh. There’s no other words I can say except of those hurtful ones.

‘’Eleanor? Oh yeah, she’s sweet.’’

‘’You only love her because of that?’’  I can’t leave that tone of disappointment in my voice.

‘’By no means.’’ Louis laughs, making my heart crack even more.

‘’She is all sweet, beautiful. Has inner and outer beauty, she’s simply perfect.’’ Louis tells as his eyes light up. It is way too obvious that he’s happy because of her, and it is also way too obvious that I’m sad because of him.

Louis continues telling his tale about his beloved Eleanor. Every nits of his story really stabs my heart in a ruthless way; why is this all happening again? Sitting down with him on a park, listening to him telling stories of the girl he currently loves. This just feels like the cruel condition I felt in exactly 6 years before this. I will never get used to hear Louis telling stories about his girls, just because I can’t control the jealousy fire burning and destroying all of me.

‘’It was when I first kissed her under the snows, I-‘’

‘’Louis.’’ I speak, sighing. Why do I have guts to interrupt him talking?

‘’Yes?’’ Louis asks, being halfly surprised since I interrupt his words.

‘’Do you mind stopping your talk?’’ I question. ‘’I’m sorry but I think I should get back, Harry must be waiting for me.’’

What? Harry? Why do I bring his name? Oh, I only mention his name as an excuse right? So that I don’t have to hear Louis’ fairytale with his dear Eleanor?

Or is it because I miss Harry?

Before my mind could find an answer, Louis answers my question at the first place. ‘’Well, alright. I’m sorry for talking too much, I just get so many things to tell you, Luna.’’

‘’Well, Louis..’’ I say as I face him. Actually I’m about to say I’ve got too many words to tell him as well but I just can’t declare it. I look down and say, ‘’We can just talk later.’’

‘’Yeah, we’ve got so many times I believe.’’ Louis chuckles. ‘’As long as you still work with Harry..’’

Working with Harry? Oh my Lord. How about my ‘career’ as Harry’s personal photographer? The picture of Harry taking off his clothes comes to my mind; I miss photographing him, and this is for real.

We eventually get out from the park and call a taxi, with our hotel as the destination. I just can’t believe I just passed a day with Louis. The silly idea, the execution of the idea itself.. It’s crazy. And I’m questioning on how still I can’t get so happy although I’m already hanging out with Louis like this? I can’t help but think about those plump lips forcefully crashing up to mine; Harry, why can’t you stop?

My mind is twisted, as two emerald green eyes bring me to a massive cloud of dreams. I can’t find Louis in my dreams anymore; it is just Harry.

***

Harry’s P.O.V

‘’Bro, what’s that necklace for?’’ Liam asks as we walk back to our hotel. I chuckle, smiling down to the anchor necklace I just bought. I bought it at the shop where Luna and I walked in.

‘’A girl.’’

‘’She’s Luna, am I right?’’

I solely laugh, leaving Liam clueless. One shouldn’t know about my feelings to Luna, at least for now.

‘’Okay if you don’t wanna tell me, hope your girl will be impressed by then.’’ Liam laughs, giving up. I nudge him, ‘’It’s a thanks for you.’’

‘’See ya tonight, dude.’’ Liam says as he walks to he and Zayn’s room. They stay together these days, I wonder why.

With a happy face, I walk along to me and Luna’s room. It’s a pride for me to be able to be in one room with Luna- it’s like the best opportunity God has given to me.

I hold the brown anchor necklace in my hand tightly as I unlock the door. The door is opened? I almost forgot that Luna was the one bringing the key- I remember giving her the key before she left. Has she come back yet?

When I open the door, the anchor necklace falls from my hand. Louis is covering Luna’s body with the thick brown hotel’s blanket, fire of jealousy burning all of me.

(The anchor necklace is on the media! So you guys can visualize it.)