RDJ Imagines

God Knows

Robert's POV

I sat here for hours. I looked beyond my backyard towards the sea. The night was here. Darkness. Like my heart, filled with it. She left, but it wasn't the first time. I have a strong feeling she won't be back...

A fight occurred. Verbal not physical, but damn near close to it. I said things I never expected to say. I said I hated her. I said I never needed her. I said she was a useless wife. I don't blame her for leaving.

The things alcohol makes you do and say. Those things I said weren't true. I do need her. She isn't a useless wife. I love her dearly. I can't take back what I said unfortunately. I can't go back in time. Everything is said and done.

I smoked a cigarette, as I continued to stare out towards the calm sea. The wind blew slightly, sending me chills. I took a swig of my whiskey, and took a deep breath.

Y/N's POV

I drove away from Robert's house about hours back. I decided to drive back because I had no where to stay. I wasn't going to speak to him. I wasn't going to restart anything. I was going to head straight to bed.

I rolled up on the driveway, and turned off my car. I headed up to the door, and opened it. I closed it behind me and started walking up the stairs, until I saw Robert sitting by himself outside, looking out. I just looked away, and went to bed.

Robert's POV

"Why are you so stupid?" I asked myself, rubbing my forehead. I sighed, and ran my hand through my hair.

I got up from my seat, and put my hands in my pocket.

If you keep messing up your life, then why are you here? If you damage everything that you have, then why do you deserve to live? If you keep replaying mistakes in your mind, then why are you thinking?

My head ran wild with questions. I can't take it. I don't want to live with this. I've messed up too many times. I tried too many times. Oh god knows I tried. There's nothing wrong with giving up if there is no other option.

I felt carved wood on my palm, as I kept my hands in my pockets. I wrapped my fingers around it, and slowly pulled it out my housecoat pocket.

I looked up to the star filled sky, and closed my eyes. My other hand cocked my gun. I looked down at my gun, seeing it shine from the moonlight.

"I can't live knowing I said those to her. Knowing I drove her away..." I said to no one.

I placed it up to my temple slowly. I felt the cold steel barrel, as I kept my eyes fixed on the sea. My breathing became irregular, as I felt myself get ready. My palms were sweaty, but I kept my position.

"Im sorry..." I whispered.

Y/N's POV

I got out the shower, and dried myself. I put on a change of clothes, and went to lay in bed. I rested my head on the soft pillow, and closed my eyes. What happened earlier flashed across my mind.

"Why are you always like this!" I yelled.

"Like what!? A caring husband!?" Robert yelled.

"No a jealous man who doesn't seem to trust me!" I yelled back. "He's just a god damn friend Robert!"

"I do trust you, it's him who I don't trust can't you see that!?"

"You know what, he's my god damn friend Robert since as long as I can remember. He will NEVER EVER even think about making advances towards me." I yelled. "I'm sorry, but I need to leave." I said, a little softer, as a tear fell.

"Fine. Go. Fucking leave. I never needed you. You're a useless wife." He spat. "I. Hate you." He finished, as he looked deep into my eyes with anger.

Bam!

I woke up, and sat up in bed quickly hearing a gunshot. I got out of bed, and quickly ran downstairs. I looked outside and saw Robert... 

He was on his knees, with his gun pointed towards the sky. He lowered the gun and rubbed the gun on the side of his head in frustration.

I went over to his side and kneeled next to him. He was whispering 'I can't do it' repeatedly. I pulled him close, and took the gun away from him. He smelled of smoke and alcohol.

I threw the gun across the other side of our backyard, and held his head close. Tears began to flow down my cheek.

"Don't you dare..." I said, crying. His chest was rising rapidly. He didn't look at me.

"I'm sorry..." Robert said, as he held back tears. "Please, I'm sorry." He couldn't hold the tears any longer. "I need you."

I pushed his hair out of his face, and kissed his forehead. I wiped his tears away with my thumb.

"Im here." I said, as we stayed there under the moonlight. "Everything's going to be ok." I said, as he pulled me close to him. Tears drying in the late night wind.

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