This is me

Wait! Last one

Closure?

"Bruh!

P.s Don't judge me please 😢😂

Siguro sa lahat ng "minahal" mo? or "nagustuhan" mo? Sakin mo unang naranasan to noh? Gwapo mo shet akin ka nalang HAHAHA joke

Naguguluhan ako Bruh eh 😅. Naguguluhan ako sa mga ginagawa mo 😅. Ayokong mag lagay ng another meaning kasi baka sabihin ang assuming ko masyado 😢. Pero sa dinami dami naman kasi ng gagawin mo eh yung bagay na lagi mo pang ginagawa 😁. Ayokong lagyan ng meaning lahat pero nalalagyan eh 😔.

Siguro kaya ganto padin ako kasi may hindi ako nasabi sayo eh. Kelangan pala kasing may umuntog sa ulo ko para marealize ko na oo nga noh? Haha ang tanga mo Sam. Bakit kasi ngayon mo lang narealize na dapat pala sinabi ko na sayo para tapos na ✌😪.

"Kung mahal mo talaga ako, hindi ka matatakot. Siguro nga hindi mo pa ko mahal. Baka like lang di pa love. Baka nga attachments lang eh 😂 O baka wala talaga 😂 Ang bilis kasi noh? Pero shet lang kasi, enge naman tips para maka move on oh. Baka gumana sakin 😂"

Kung happy ka na sa iba, I'll also be happy for you 😊.

Sabi ni J***** nun, "baka naman nilandi mo kaya naging kayo" 😂 Baka nga, bruh 😂 Yang issue kasi na yan eh, ayan tuloy. Nasstress na ko ah 😂

Hirap mag move on sa attachments noh? Kaya ayokong naaattach eh. Hirap mag move on sayo. Shet gwapo mo talaga eh 😍 Pag sinasabi mong namimiss mo ko pinipigilan ko lang yung sarili kong sabihing "miss you too. sobra" kasi parang pag sinabi ko yun bibigay na naman ako eh. Ilang times akong nag attempt na ichat ka para sabihin sayo to pero natatakot ako baka kasi ma- bother ka eh. Baka makagulo lang ako sayo or kung sakali sa gurlaloo na nagugustuhan mo. Luh, kawawa naman ako nun 😢😂 Kung matagal mo na siyang gusto, as in matagal na talaga, go. Wag kang ma bother dahil sa chat na to 😂 pwede mo naman idelete to after eh.

... Loving means, (if totoo man 😂) I really need to set you free. Charuuut!!

HAHAHAHAHA yun lang babaye 😂"

*****

"I'm sorry, Sam. I know I'm wrong. I insisted about our relationship knowing that I'm not yet ready. I'm sorry. It's just that, one moment I found myself falling for you. Because you're so sweet and cute. Tapos sinalo mo pa ko nung nahulog ako sayo..."

After reading those, only one word has escaped from my mouth.

"Shet"

*****

Maybe one of the reasons why I can't move on is because meron akong hindi nasabi sakanya before we cut everything off. May naiwan kasing naka attach pa at ayaw pang bumitaw that's why maybe I'm like this the past weeks.

But a sudden realization hit me. And by hit me, my friend literally hit me so hard that he make sure I literally woke up from dreamland. When he hit me, I suddenly realize something and that is that I shouldn't waste any more time in sort of chasing him. Assuming. Expecting things. Making tables turn. A happy ending at that dreamland. Life is too short to do all of that. Besides he looks like he's happy na with his "new gurl", if ever those rumors about them is true. But I think it's true. I sometimes see them together.

NOT being jealous or something because as far as possible I try not to be close to them. Especially for the "new gurl". I sort of dislike her aura. I don't know. It's just that, whenever she looks at me she always looks like that person who's going to kill me. Well I'm sorry for being cute and sweet and all that once "my man" that is now "yours" has fallen in loved with.

A little advice gurl? Don't you DARE judge about MY life, MY personal choices because I'm not even interested in yours.

Bigyan ng Oscar's!! HAHA kidding.

But ok, judge me all you want. I don't care. Just make sure you know ALL the details in my life. Who would want to know that you're being judgemental over a nonsense story of such a cute and adorable human being?

*****

Maybe.

Maybe we both aren't ready just yet. Besides, we're still young. Who knows what could happen, right?

Maybe it's just the right love BUT the wrong person.

Or right love at a wrong time.

Or maybe its just not love at all.

HAHAHAHA but I'm not saying that love is wrong ah! Don't misunderstand. Let's just say that it's really not the time for me to fall in love even though they say that as for my age, having relationships or something is normal. But I'd still go with the flow and just let God plan the straight path he's building for me. I know THAT is worth the wait not like the person I once love. Charuuuut!!!

*****

Real love waits...