A Loser With A Cellphone (Alex Standall)

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Alex: You know what's weird
You: What?
Alex: The majority of our irl interactions have included food
You: Tru
Alex: And yet none of the holy trinity
Alex: Pizza, pasta or fries
Alex: that could be how we meet tbh if you want
Alex: we could go out to eat one of those :)
Alex: it wouldn't have to be a date or anything
Alex: just casual
Alex: chilling with some fries
Alex: you okay? You're strangely quiet
Alex: and not adding in any refusals or sarcastic responses
Alex: Are you actually down for this plan but trying to word how to say so? ;)
You: I'm ok
You: well actually
You: not really but it's okay
Alex: what happened?
You: nothing really
You: it's stupid
Alex: I bet it isn't
Alex: just tell me
Alex: you can trust me
You: I had an anxiety attack at school, okay? bc they were discussing everything again and people still can't take shit seriously and were making jokes about it and I just lost my shit
You: it's humiliating and I'm exhausted
Alex: it's okay
You: it's not okay
Alex: Well that's alright too
Alex: I mean, I understand it. I'm not too great with words but I get it. I hate how every at school treats it as well, like it isn't something huge. Like life didn't end for somebody
Alex: but it did. and that's something that I think about every day. I saw Hannah's dad the other day, you know? people don't think about how it's changed for them
Alex: I keep thinking i'll see her in the halls but then I have to remember that I won't, because I fucked up big time
Alex: so don't think you're stupid for being human
Alex: you're one of the best people in this entire fucking school because you actually have a brain and a heart and you use them, and I know that I can't even say the same for myself
You: I'm sorry for bringing it up. I know how awful it is for you
Alex: I think about it anyways
You: Would some fries help?
Alex: really? Face 2 face?
You: did you really just use a 2 instead of "to"
You: it's not that much more effort to type out
You: you're like one of those kids that adults pick up about how to understand your children
Alex: ah, that's the Lyrical that I know and love
Alex: but?
You: would it help? fries?
Alex: fries are a true miracle worker
You: then yes
You: face 2 face 😊
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oh my gOd I went and read back what I've written for this, and 1. It is literal shit, and 2. I subconsciously switched tenses in some of the written bits & I'm crINGING SO HARD AT THE FACT THAT I DID THAT, I've corrected them now!! thank you all so much for being so damn supportive of this story anyways ❤️❤️