Missing Piece of Mine

Chapter 31

(Lance POV)

Now I am thinking, Why did I do that! I suddenly exploded. Those feelings was tormenting me for a long time. Now that I said it all to her para akong nabunutan ng tinik but I doesn't feel right. What done has done.

Umuwi ako sa bahay at naabutan si Lucy sa loob na nagrerelax. Ginawa pa atang pampering spa tong bahay ko.

"What are you doing here? Pano ka nakapasok?" tanong ko sakanya while heading to the kitchen.

"I planned to start my own business, I need some advice from you. Hindi kasi panghabang buhay ang show business" paliwanag nya at sumunod din sakin.
"So what happened to you? You look down and mess up?" sunod sunod nyang tanong I pretend I didn't hear it.

Magmumukha akong laughing stock mamaya kapag sinabi ko sakanya. Kumuha ako ng isang canned beer sa fridge but she suddenly grabbed it so I took another one para inumin.

"So what is your business?" tanong ko sakanya.

"I don't think it's the right time to talk about it." sabi nya naman.

"It was all written on your face, I think I have to be a good friend right now" Sabi nya and suddenly took her phone and called someone.

"Ricky, can you please cancel all my appointments for today? I'm not feeling well" sabi nya, I guess manager nya yun. "Gawin mo nalang!" she stubbornly added. I can't believe this girl bosing around her manager.

"So now tell me all your burdens" she said teasing me but I end up telling her everything.

" Woah... This cold hearted boy is in love" sabi nya't pangiti-ngiti pa.

"I already told you everything but please don't make me into a laughing stock" pakiusap ko sakanya.

"Proud lang naman ako sa bravery mo." sagot nya.

"Bravery? Para nga akong tanga eh. I suddenly confessed kahit na alam kong useless lang naman yun." sagot ko naman sakanya at kumuha ulit ng isa pang beer.

"Do you know Why I liked Lloyd so much?" tanong nya at wala akong Idea kaya curious din ako.

"Kahit na isa akong rising star noon, getting famous, getting all the attention from my fans. It was only Lloyd who didn't aproached crazily gaya ng iba kong fans, kahit na stuck kami sa isang elevator at kahit kaming dalawa lang nung mga moment nayun,  hindi ko naramdamang iba ako sakanya. I didn't feel like a famous celebrity, I can be myself in front of him. It's not because he didn't care about me but he did it to respect me. He respected me that way kaya sabi ko sa sarili ko, If thing's work out well with him, mamahalin ko ang lalaking to higit pa sa career ko" Kwento nya, so now I know how they started.

"So anong gusto mong sabihin?" tanong  ko naman. 

"Minsan lang tayo magmahal, maraming hindrances at challenges, pero ang minsan na yan hindi yan laging nangyayari. Kaya Love all you can, give your all, even if the world is against it. and it's only you who knows when to stopped when you had enough. Don't stop when haven't give your all yet" paliwanag nya. 

"I think I had enough, i think it's better to stop now" sagot ko naman tapos bigla nya akong binatukan. 

"You only confessed your feelings, you didn't even asked what she feels. Tumigil ka lang if she tells you to stop" sagot nya naman matapos ubusin yung beer nya. 

(Jessie's POV)

Nasa kwarto lang sya nagkukulong since Lance confessed to her. It's been 3 days already. sa tingin ko kailangan nya munang mapagisa kaya hindi ko muna sya tinanong or kinulit. Soon enough she'll open up to me for sure. I just stayed beside her. Kuya Lloyd can't talk to her either.

"How's Raffie? kumain na ba sya?" tanong sakin ni Kuya Lloyd pagkababa ko galing sa kwarto nya. 

"Hindi parin eh" sagot ko. 

"Keep the food supplement in her water kahit hindi sya kumakain" sabi i Kuya Lloyd. 

"Nagaalala na ako sakanya" sabi ko naman. 

"Raffie, can manage it, she only needs time to think" paliwanag ni Kuya Lloyd bago sya umalis papunta sa trabaho nya. 

Ilang sandali pumasok ako sa kwarto nya, susubukan ko lang kung kaya nya nang mag-open up ng nararamdaman nya.

"Raff, just tell me everything makikinig ako" sabi ko sakanya habang nakatalukbong sya ng kumot nya.

"I didn't realize na ganun na pala yung nararamdaman nya, while I  keep my distance  away from him, ang selfish-selfish ko, nasasaktan ko na pala sya"  she said at kinuha ko ang phone ko to record all she was saying. 

"I was Kissed by an amazing man, but I ignore it thinking na baka  laro-laro lang to para sakanya. ayoko nang masaktan ulit kaya pinilit kong isipin that he was only playing around at hindi ko kailangan seryosohin yung ginawa nya but I end up tormenting him. I end up ignoring what he feels" mangiyak ngiyak nyang sabi, even I can't believe sa mga sinabi nya, things that she never told me before.

"Jess, ang tanga-tanga ko, ang sama-sama ko, kaya ba ako iniwan din ni Adrian noon dahil binaliwala ko sya?" tanong nya sakin. 

"I don't think so" sagot naman sakanya. 

"Sino ba talaga mas matimbang para sayo? si Adrian o si Lance? kahit wala kang piliin, pareho naman silang masasaktan, dahil sila mismo alam ang sagot kung sino ang mas matimbang sayo" paliwanag ko naman. "Hindi ko rin ine-expect na kinikim-kim lang pala ni Lance yung nararamdaman nya sayo" dagdag ko pa.

The situation is really hard to tell. I can't decide for her, susuportahan ko nalang sya sa kahit na anong paraan. after she told me everything, nakatulog na sya sa sobrang pag-iyak, sana naman tama na ang gagawin ko this time.

Pumunta ako sa bahay ni Lance, bukas ang gate kaya pumasok nalang ako, hindi din naman kasi sya sumasagot kahit na tumatawag ako. Pagkapasok ko, agad ko syang nakita na nakahiga sa sala nya at nagpapakawasak.

"Anung ginagawa mo dito?" tanong nya habang nililipat yung channel sa TV.

"Making things right" tipid kong sagot pero pinagtawanan nya lang ako. 

"Are you crazy?" sabi nya at napaupo ng maayos sa upuan. 

"OO! Baliw na ako! nababaliw na ako sa inyong dalawa kaya umayos ka!" pasigaw ko sakanya at pinatay yung TV tsaka pinlay ko yung nirecord ko. 

*"I was Kissed by an amazing man, but I ignore it thinking na baka laro-laro lang to para sakanya. ayoko nang masaktan ulit kaya pinilit kong isipin that he was only playing around at hindi ko kailangan seryosohin yung ginawa nya but I end up tormenting him. I end up ignoring what he feels"*

"Woah.. kahit sobrang tagal na naming magkaibigan ni Raffie, Hindi ko talaga alam na may ganito na palang nangyayari sa inyo" sabi ko naman, but he didn't say anything. 

"Now you already know how she feels ngayon ka pa ba titigil?" tanong ko sakanya pero nakatulala lang sya. I think he's overthinking again.

"Now what do you want me to do?" tanong nya sakin. 

"Don't ask me! tanungin mo sarili mo! anong dapat mong gawin" sabi ko at agad umalis. bahala na sya kung anu man ang gagawin nya. Nasa kanya na yun kung lalaban pa sya or give up na.