I'll Love you Forever *Jacob Black Love Story*

CHAPTER 18

*Jake's POV*

I was currently walking through the forest in my wolf form, making sure that there were no random leeches roaming around. I looked up at the sky and noticed the sun was starting to set. Technically, patrol was over roughly ten minutes ago, but I convinced the guys to go on home and told them that I wanted to do another perimeter run. My mind kept replaying the kiss that me and Ali shared. Her lips were a lot softer than I thought and tasted so sweet. I was glad to be alone mainly cause I don't need any of the guys seeing my thoughts and teasing me for being 'whipped'. I'd never hear the end of it. Speaking of Ali, she was acting pretty weird today at school. Everytime I tried talking to her, she'd give me short answers and avoid eye contact with me. Everytime I'd try to hold her hand, she'd quickly pull away as if my touch burned her. What confused me the most was that everytime I try walking with her to class, she'd always bolt out her seat and rush out the door everytime the bell rang.I didn't want to admit it, but her actions kind of hurt. I didn't even see any sign of her at lunch. Did I do something wrong? Was it something I did that offended her? Did she not enjoy the kiss like I did? Maybe she didn't feel the sparks that I felt. Maybe she regrets that the kiss ever happened. I won't be afraid to admit that I'm in love with Ali; in fact, I've fallen in love with her as soon as I met her. Call me cheesy, but I found myself falling deep for this girl without even realizing until now. I wanted to tell her that I love her, but I'm not too sure on how well she'll handle it; for all I know, she could end up rejecting me. Well, only way to find out. Without hesitation, I took off running to Ali's house.

*Alison's POV*
Dinner was finished about thirty minutes ago and I just finished taking a shower. I was sprawled out across my bed in my pajamas trying to distract myself with some math homework. Just as I was working on the last math question, my mind randomly went back to what happened yesterday and I immediately felt a blush rise to my cheeks. I wonder what made him kiss me in the first place. Maybe he did it cause it was a 'spur of the moment' kind of thing. I mean I'm not going to lie..I kinda liked it. Where exactly does this leave us? Okay I'm definitely confused now. I kind of felt bad that I was practically avoiding him, but I needed some time to think. I have a very strong feeling that I've started to fall in love with Jake, which isn't exactly a good thing. That means that I'm breaking my promise to never fall in love again. Jake's been sending me text messages and calling me, but I didn't answer any of them. Yeah, I know that I'm being selfish, but my mind is just all over the place with emotions.

I groaned out loud and quickly finished up the remainder of my homework. Once I was finished, I put it away in my bag and plopped back on my bed. I heard a tapping noise at my window, so I got up from my spot on the bed and walked towards the window. I pulled back the curtain and almost screamed in shock and fright as I saw Jake's face right outside my window. I opened up the window and once the window was open wide enough, he didn't hesitate to swing his body through the window and land gracefully on his feet.

"Yeah, sure you can come in," I said sarcastically.

"Look, we need to talk," he demanded.

"oh, um sure...what about?" I questioned.

"I want to know why you've been avoiding me all day? Did I do something wrong?" Jake furrowed his eyebrows.

"No! You didn't do anything wrong at all," I widened my eyes.

"Well then how come you haven't said a word to me at all today?" he asked as he crossed his arms. I mentally shrunk under the intense look in his eyes.

"I'm not sure you'll want to know," I murmured under my breath, which made Jake sigh.

"Come on Als, you can tell me anything. You know that," he said as his eyes started to soften. I sighed and sat down at the edge of my bed.

"Okay fine it was because of the kiss, alright? I thought that it would make things awkward, so I've been avoiding you. Yeah, I know it sounds pathetic," I groaned and put my head in my hands. I heard the sound of Jake's footsteps coming closer and felt the bed dip beside me. I felt Jake's hot hand rest on my thigh and I lifted my head to stare into his chocolate colored orbs.

"It's not pathetic it's just a bit confusing. I mean why would it make things awkward? I figured we already knew how we felt about each other. At least, I told you how I felt," he said.

"Honestly, my emotions have been all over the place since the kiss happened. I mean don't get me wrong; I enjoyed it, but I feel like I might be falling for you, a bit too fast might I add," I confessed as I fiddled with my fingers. A blush spread across my cheeks as I realized that I've pretty much admitted that I like Jake.

"Well, I'm not going to lie. I'm crazy in love with you and I always have been ever since we met. I'm not sure if it's possible, but I've fallen even harder for you and you mean absolutely everything to me," Jake said truthfully while the blush on my cheeks got worse.

"I was afraid that you were going to say that. I just don't want my heart to get broken again and I refuse to go through that again," I frowned and I heard Jake scoff, which made my frown deepen. What's his problem?

"Well, we can get one thing straight; I'm nothing like that bastard," he snapped, making me cringe at his harsh tone.

"I never said that you were," I said, starting to get defensive.

"Look, it's very obvious that we both have feelings for each other, so why don't we give us a try?" Jake asked.

"You know how I feel when it comes to that, Jake. Besides, how do I know for sure that you have feelings for me? It could be the imprint that's forcing you to be with me," I said and I automatically regretted saying the last part as I saw Jake's eyes begin to harden.

"You know damn well that my feelings aren't forced; they're genuine and 100% real," he growled, making me jump slightly. I didn't know why I tried to say that his feelings for me were non-existent. I guess a small part of me didn't forget about how I've been cheated and lied to years ago and on top of that, I've been lied to yet again by someone that I've grown to trust. A look of realization started to form on his face before it turned to hurt.

"I get it. You don't believe or trust me even though we've been close friends for a few months. I thought for sure that I'd get you to open up to me fully and trust me instead of pushing me away. Did our friendship not mean anything to you?" he asked as he began to slightly pace in place.

"Hey, don't try turning this around on me! YOU were the one who pretty much implied that you befriended me out of sympathy and that our friendship was nothing, so don't you dare try to put the blame on me, you hypocrite. This is why I don't trust people easily, specifically guys. I knew this was going to happen. Things would've been better if I never met you and just stayed in Miami," I yelled and began to feel tears build in my eyes, but I forced them away. I refused to cry for it would make me look vulnerable.

"Well, I'll make things easier and just give you your space then. I'm out of here." He spat and his body trembling ever so slightly. Crap, I didn't mean to make him this mad. I cowarded away ever so slightly out of guilt and a bit of fear. I watched as he walked to the window and jumped out without glancing back at me. I sighed as I felt the anger wash out of me and be replaced with guilt. Ugh I'm so stupid! I didn't mean anything I said to him. Now that I think about it, it was pretty obvious that Jake cared deeply for me. I thought back to how it seemed like his eyes were full of happiness whenever I was around him and the amount of positive energy that radiated off of him like heat radiating from a sun. If he were someone else, he would've given up on me a long time ago, but he stuck around enough to not only befriend me, but become a very close friend of mine that I've grown to trust and......love. Yes, I'll admit that I'm undeniably and deeply in love with Jacob Ephraim Black.

Ugh I'm sorry if this chapter sucked, but I promise you I will try to make the next two more interesting! It's been a while since I updated, but school has started for me, so I probably won't be able to update frequently (not like I've been doing that anyways), but I'll find some way around my school schedule to update. Peace out!!!

-Paris xx