Hell Above (p.t.v)

⭐️Chapter 39.Without You,There Is No Me

Chapter 39.Without You,There Is No Me

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March 8th.

I sigh as I stare at the sunset in the sky settle down. We were gathered in Iqra's room-by we, I mean Narine,Julia, Iqra and I- Thank God for half-days. It's been a full week since I broke up with Vic.

A full week. I miss him.

I haven't had contact with him ever since.

I'm filled with tension, doubt, and guilt.

Half of me feels worthless.

Half of me feels like a dumbass to let go.

How could I think such a thing?

I'm dying in anticipation and I really demand an explanation.

I need to know exactly what happened. But, I don't even have the confidence to face him. I always delay and tell my friends that I'll talk soon.

Why am I such an idiot? I guess, I was traumatized by the moment.

My love for him was infinite, but I'm not even sure he feels the same for me anymore.

I sat on Iqra's bed, holding my knees to my chin. I handled the past week of school with such difficulty, as my anxiety levels raised high above. The guys eventually found out about the breakup and a lot happened. Vic has been leaving voicemails and text messages on my phone every single day for the past week, but I never had the strength to read,listen or pick up. Because of the breakup, during things such as lunch, the whole group doesn't even sit together due the lack of contact between Vic and I. The guys sit at one table, while the girls sit at another. Jaime, Tony and Mike always come to me daily telling me Vic isn't the same anymore and that he needs me.

The thing is, I have no idea what to do.

"Jess?"

I jerked my head up looking at Narine, Julia and Iqra staring at me.

"Yeah?" I muttered.

"You alright?" Iqra asked.

"I'm fine."

"Is it Vic again?" Julia stared at me.

"I-I don't even know anymor-" I began to say until my phone rang. I looked to my sides and couldn't find it anywhere besides me. Julia searched the side of her and the phone suddenly popped in her hands, wow she was fast.

"Who is it?" I questioned, as she took a look at the caller I.D then her eyes widen.

She pressed the screen and tossed the phone at me.

I raise my eyebrow, catching it and pressing it to my ear. "Hello?"

"Heeeeeey Jess." I heard a familiar voice slur over the line. The one whose voice I haven't heard in a full week. Vic. What the flying fuck? Was he drunk? He was drinking?

"V-Vic? Is that you?"

"Noo, I is Olaf." He slurred yet again.

"Vic, are you drunk?" I raised my eyebrow.

I heard him laugh, an odd laugh. "What're you talkin' 'bout? I'm Olaf the Unicorn. Heheheheh, I'm freeeeeeee."

He's drunk.

"Vic, what are you currently holding in your hand right now?"

He chuckled, "Oh nuthin' but good ol' beaaaaar."

"Did you just say bear?"

"Oh silly Jessssssssica, I say beer."

I put a hand to my forehead. How did he get beer? He's goddamn 16! Fucking underage! OHMYGOD, if he was drunk, he could do anything, without thinking twice.

"V-Vic, where are you right now?" I stuttered anxiously.

He remained silent for awhile.

"Vic?!"

"Oh,oh what? I saw a purty butterfly. Ah...pretty...butterfly. So high in the sky. Flap your wings, butterfly!"

"Vic, where are you?!"

"-Oh. Oh, whale. I'm-I'm on- huh? Where am I? Hm."

Oh, Jesus. He doesn't even remember where he is! I heard some muffling over the line.

"Ooooh. Aye. I'm, on, um, a cliff. Weeeee."

He's. On. A. Cliff.

A cliff.

He could do anything!

But which cliff? Oh geez.

"Vic, I'll be there in a while. Please, please don't do anything!"

He scoffed then chuckled, "No promisesss!" Then the line cut off.

I threw my phone in my pocket and ran my hand through my hair. "Ohmygod, oHMYGOD!" I yelled, pacing back and forth.

"What happened?" Narine questioned,as she popped a piece of popcorn in her mouth.

"Vic's drunk." I replied.

She nearly choked in shock and stared at me with an 'Are you fucking serious' look. "Drunk?! How even-"

I interjected, "I don't know! All I know is that he's apparently hanging out on a cliff and I don't even know which one!"

"Calm,girl,calm." Julia said.

"I can't! Vic's drunk and on a cliff! And which one? Who knows?!"

"There's only one cliff in San Diego." Iqra dryly replied. I slipped on my converses and put on my leather jacket. "Where?"

"A bit near Jaime's." He went that far?

"Alright." I replied, sticking earbuds in my ears.

"Jessica, you sure you don't want us coming with you?" Narine asked.

I nodded. "I'll handle this alone," I said opening Iqra's bedroom door.

"Wait, Jess." Julia called out to me.

I turned before shutting the door. "Yeah?"

"Win him back." She whispered. "Oh, and slap him for me."

I stood besides the staircase, wide-eyed.

But all I did was cause him pain.

Would he even want me back?

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Author's Note!

Extremely short chapter, I apologizeeee. But, I didn't feel right continuing right after this,so. Guess you'll have to wait c:

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-Jessica