Butterfly Suoh (OHSHC)

Chapter 43 - Count your blessings, not your flaws

Tomoki's POV

How dare they! I ignored the many stares and whispers around me as I ran by, many of the girls giving me disapproving looks as if they knew I what I had said to that idiot. I ran until my lungs felt like they were on fire, I opened the door to an empty classroom, closing it harshly behind me. Damn it! Why did this have to happen today?! The day before Alphonse arrives! I cursed wildly, throwing around many profanities around the room like they were candy being handed off to small innocent children. I ripped my hair out of it's ponytail, my butterfly hair clip being pulled out in the process, it falling to the floor with a loud clang. I cringed at the sound before crouching down and picking it up. I twisted the clip around, the sun coming from the window gleaming off of it. I closed my eye when the sun redirected off of the clip and into my right eye

"Ow!" I yelped, placing the clip down on one of the classroom's desks next to me. I rubbed my eyes carefully, blinking furiously to get the annoying dot out of my field of vision. I jumped when I heard the door slide open then close. I sighed heavily, resting my hands on the desks on either side of me not daring to look and see who just entered the classroom

"Tomoki..." I recognized the soft voice of Kaoru behind me. I gripped tightly onto the edges of the desks, clenching my jaw in frustration

"I know that you feel angry at Tamaki or at any of us for not telling you that we knew about you having an arranged marriage-"

"How long have you known." I suddenly asked, my knuckles turning white

"What?"

"I asked, how long have you known?!" I turned around on my heel quickly coming face to face with Kaoru

"How long have you known about my damn arranged marriage to a French Ass?!" I asked him furiously knocking him out of his stupid state

"For two weeks..."

"Oh, how funny that's about around the time I found out that I was suddenly going to be shipped off into another family which by the way, is the same family that my brother was going to be welcomed into if he had just married Eclair!" I shouted at him, anger consuming my every thought and being. I was breaking down and no one could stop me from doing so

"But no! The universe just hates me so damn much because I am nothing when it comes to being smart! I can learn how to play many instruments I would like but that does nothing! Absolutely nothing! No matter how many times I'm at the top of all of my classes it's never enough for my family! I'm expected to now be the savior of the Suoh Family just because my older brother decided not to go with that path and marry into a family that would make the Suoh Family stronger! He just had to waste his time at that stupid Host Club of Ouran Academy! Resting all of his responsibilities and my grandmother's and father's on the shoulders of a 14 year old girl who was dragged here to Japan by force!" I breathed heavily, feeling my cheeks sticky with tears my breathing becoming forced and ragged. Kaoru stared in shock at me, unable to believe what was happening behind closed doors, inside my mind. I took a deep breath before continuing

"And I bet you never knew, I bet even Tamaki didn't know that I took care of everything, I arranged all the meeting, paid all the bills, paid the maids and butlers! I have been doing this since I arrived here because Shizue told me 'It's better doing all this now rather than you stupid girl being out on the streets!'." I confessed to him, feeling my shoulders shaking and knees wobbling, finally all of the stress that has been built up over the years has finally erupted

"Then being thrown into an arranged marriage without my approval just put the icing on top because I know who my fiance is, what he is known for and France and let met tell you he is a complete and utter fuckboy! He gets close to a girl then throws them away when they no longer satisfy his horny needs! That's who I'm going be forced to marry, who I'm gonna have to spend the rest of my life with!" I stopped, taking another breath before continuing only for Kaoru to stop me, covering my mouth with his hand

"I get it! Your life has been hell for you ever since you left France but it has been for all of us! Everyone at the Host Club! Tamaki, Kyoya, Mori, Honey, Haruhi, Hikaru, and even me! We understand your suffering even though we come from totally different perspectives! Your brother suffered from never being good enough for your grandmother and missing your guy's mother while also having to worry about what Shizue was poisoning your mind with! Kyoya is suffering from being left in the dark, also having to one step up his three older brothers, never having a reason to smile until he met Tamaki. Mori had to look after Honey while also dealing with the many responsibilities of his family. Honey had to surpass all others in fighting and being stone hearted like his father but his personality shows of the lost childhood he had when he was little! Haruhi had to take care of her dad when her mom died while also balancing her school and bills! Me and Hikaru had to deal with people never learning how to tell us apart, even our own parents still don't know how to tell us apart! We isolated ourselves from the world only speaking to each other until your brother came along and annoyed us until we agreed to join the club! Don't you see, The Host Club isn't just a place to make young ladies happy! It's our solace for our last years in High School! Yes, it may seem a waste of time to many but this is what we love to do every single day make others happy while we do the same." He lowered his hand off of my mouth, it falling back to his side. I stared in shock at him, many different scenarios playing through my head of the others Hosts, picturing their past continuously until Kaoru snapped her out of it by pulling her into a hug

"You're not alone, and now that you know that we know about him we will stop at nothing to break off the engagement while helping you find the girl on the phone to teach her a lesson."

To Be continued