I guess since.. I'm well, emotionless at the moment
There's something I would like my friends to know about me
I'm a person out of billions...
A person
When you talk do me.. do you see me as a talking bubble or a person?
The thing is, I wonder how people end up sticking around me...
Not that it's a bad thing- not at all..... but why do you stay.. like I do?
I guess I can make people laugh or cheer them up
Never have been good at jokes..
And I'm some how inspirational? I'm just doing what thousands are doing
And if anything.... from life experience I know a bad day when I see one
But with all this....
Why don't... people like me as much where I actually am?
Sometimes... I wonder... (just a thought) that what if one of my friends secretly hated me... and are just being nice to spare my feelings
Why do I get upset over the smallest things......
I'm afraid of making my friends angry or upset
I'm afraid of being a bad friend....
The fact is...
When your me.. your not allowed to be mad
Or else people would think it's not even me...
Or maybe I overreact
The truth is.... most people- I don't want to say don't care... but don't really get it.. or
.. I'll put that aside
It's not about me.. never was
Because I put my friends first- always ☺️
Always read their stories no matter how chaotic, always listen to your problems no matter how silly or serious
I'm just afraid one day.. everybody will just one day come to a halt without no explanation and leave again..
Sometimes.. I think I'm too dependent of friends
And you guys are dependent on me on a very high level at times.. but I'm not you, so I can't assume
I'm not always going to be there the second you text me, I'm not always going to be a pillow
But there's one thing I know.... I will be the last one there to leave, I don't care if this goes till college
Cause the truth is I can't let go.. until I have no choice
