Im Only Human

Telling Nat

Mac's POV

We pull up at the mall after having a very awkward and silent car ride. The radio wasn't even playing.

She would look over at me every now and then but she never said anything. I know it bothers her that I did what I did. She's always told me that she will be here for me no matter what but this isn't something she can just fix. I know I probably went too far but it felt good. She's warned me not to cut. Her and Nat both. Oh my god. Nat.

I haven't even told Nat. I saw her the night of the performances but never told her what I did. She would probably yell at me and tell me to never do it again. I laugh while picturing her yelling. She's funny when she's mad.

"What's funny?" Taylor asks.

"Just thinking about what Nat will do once she finds out." I smile.

"Oh." Is all she says. She parks and gets out of the car.

Before we left I changed into my own clothes. I put on a pair of dark denim jeans and loose red t shirt. I slipped on my converse and put my hair in a ponytail and we left. I didn't think I needed to try to look nice or cute or anything. I didn't feel up to it.

I got out of the car and ran to catch up to Taylor, who was nearly halfway across the parking lot.

When I got to her, she linked arms with me and smiled. "You know I'm upset with you."

It wasn't a question. I nod and look down at the ground.

"Zayn told me why you did it and I understand that but I'm here for you so you don't have to do things like this. I'm here to support you and make you stronger." She stops in front of the doors and turns to face me.

She places her hands on my shoulders and continues. "Me and Nat both. We're here for you. I know this shit that's going on is pretty fucked up but we will get through it together. Understand me." I nod. She has a serious and sincere look on her face. "If I find out you did something like that again, you will not like me." She smiles and we walk in arm in arm.

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"What about this Mac? This would look really good on you." She hands me a dress. "And I know Niall likes it when you wear red."

A lump starts to form in my throat when she says his name. I'm trying to stay away from him. He doesn't deserve me. He needs someone who can love him and only him. Not someone who is in love with two people.

One of the people you're in love with put your mom in the hospital.

I refuse to believe that. He would never do something like that ever. Everyone only sees him as the man who broke my heart when really he's sweet and nice. At least I thought so. After what happened, I'm starting to second guess my judgement. But I still don't think he did that to my mom.

"I don't think so." I tell her.

"Come on." I shake my head. "Please."

"No. I don't do dresses." I look down at it. "When would I wear it anyway?"

She grins at me. "Well you see, I was thinking of throwing a party. For you. Well your mom really."

"My mom?" I ask confused. She can't have a party for someone who can't go to one.

"Yes. With her being in the hospital, her medical bill must be high since she can't work and Beth is the only one here to pay for it. So I was thinking we throw a benefit party for her. To help pay. Whatcha think?"

I just look at her. I can't believe she would want to do something like this. It's such a great idea. Thoughts and ideas start to form in my head.