Im Only Human

Anniversary Dinner

1 month later

Mac's POV

It's 7 am when Beth walks into my room an a Thursday morning. It its now March and her and Liam are celebrating their one month anniversary today.

"Get up!" she screams. I groan and roll out of bed. I'm gonna hate today. I have to dress nice and HE is gonna be there. We're all having dinner at the boys' place. Nat and Harry have been dating for a few weeks. She's still oblivious to the girls he sleeps around with and I don't have the heart to tell her.

Beth tosses a dress at me. "Here wear this."

I undress and pull it over my head. It's a red dress that flares at the waist and the skirt of it has gold sparkles. It's strapless and zips in the back. Beth comes to zip it up and twirls me around.

"Beautiful." She says.

"Nat picked this out didn't she." Beth nods.

She tosses a jacket at me. It's a black leather jacket. "She gave you this too. She said you would probably want one something to cover your shoulders. She also said to wear your converse." She walks out.

I sigh. At least I'll have comfortable shoes.

I check out myself in the mirror. Nat is good. I love the out fits she picks.

"How do I look?" Beth asks as she walks back in. She's wearing a glittery purple v-neck dress with long, lace sleeves. She's has her hair curled and she's wearing purple strappy 2" wedges.

"Beautiful." I mimic her voice from earlier.

She rolls her eyes. "Are you ready? we need to head over and start setting things up." I nod.

We grab things we need and head for our cars. We pull up to the house and so does Niall.

"Mac!" Beth yells. I turn to look at her. "You and Niall are making dinner. Help him with the groceries."

I look over at Niall. He starts grabbing bags from his car. "I thought I was just cooking."

She shakes her head. "He offered to help, so don't complain."

I sigh and go to his car to grab bags. He's standing right behind me when I turn around. "Hi, Mckenzie."

I don't answer. I don't even give him eye contact. I just walk into the house like he didn't say anything. I don't want to talk to him. I've made that clear numerous amounts of times but he keeps trying. No matter how hard I push him away.

The day after we broke up, he called and called trying to get me back. I didn't want to hear it. He didn't come to school for weeks. When he came back, he looked like he had lost so much weight. He hardly ate lunch anymore. He claimed he was gone for so long because he was visiting his family, but we both knew it was because of me. I did this to him.

His blonde dyed hair has faded to a light brown and his sparkling blue eyes are now a dead blue sea. I've changed him and not in a good way. He looks so pitiful sometimes. Like a lost puppy and I know that all it takes to bring him back is for me to be with him again. But I can't do that. I'm too broke inside to risk my heart again. I was right on the edge but I caught myself before I fell. He didn't do the same. In the process of breaking down, I didn't realize that I broke the one person who could ever love me. I cried for a few days and beat myself up for being so stupid.

"What are we making?" he asks as we enter the house with the last bit of groceries.

"Spaghetti, salad, and garlic bread." I answer. He nods his head. "If you do the salad and put the bread in the oven, I'll make the spaghetti. Deal?"

"Deal."

We get started and he doesn't try to talk to me. We make everything in silence. When we finish it's 4:30 pm. Everyone is in the living room sitting on the couches visiting. I announce that dinner is ready and we all go to the kitchen to serve ourselves. When we sit around the table, I'm next to Niall and next to him is Lou. Liam and Harry sit at the ends with their girlfriends next to them and Zayn is in between them.

"Today is Thursday. We're on spring break so what do you want to do tomorrow Mac?"

"What's tomorrow?" Lou asks.

"Mac's birthday!" Nat yells.

They all look at me but Niall is the first one to speak. "You should have a party." He says.

"Great idea!" Nat says. "Niall and I can plan it."

"No one will come. It's spring break. Everyone is gone or having there own party. No one will come to mine." I say. I really don't care whether or not I have a party. I just don't want Niall to be a part of it.

He looks at me. His blue eyes burning into me. "You don't need everyone in the whole fucking city to go." I look at him. This is the first time we have made eye contact. "You only need those who care about you."

I nod and continue eating. The whole table starts buzzing with party plans, that I ignore, while I wonder about what Niall has planned for my birthday.

I'm about to protest again when Harry's phone rings. "Babe, would you get that?" he asks Nat. She gets up and goes into the living room to answer the phone.

"Hello." she says. she starts walking back into the kitchen. "He's eating right now. May I ask who's calling?" she frowns. "Kennedy." she looks at me. Harry's eyes grow wide. "Do you want to leave a message?" she's quiet as she listens. Her face falls and she looks at Harry. "Ok. I'll be sure to tell him." She hangs up.

"Nat. I can explain." Harry starts. Nat takes his phone and tosses it to the ground. She takes the heel of his shoe and smashes it. "What the hell is that for?" he asks.

"I did that so I won't have to worry about your sorry ass calling me." She leans against the wall. "Why the fuck is Kennedy calling you?"

"She's just my friend." He says.

"Really?" he nods. "Then why was she asking when she could come by and get the rest of her clothes?"

Harry stands. "She's just my friend."

"Your friend with benefits." Louis murmurs.

Nat turns her glare to us. "What do you know?" We all look at each other then at Harry, then at Nat. "You all fucking knew didn't you?" she looks at me. "I did not expect this from you. Them maybe but not you. You are supposed to be my friend."

"I am!" I tell her.

"Then why didn't you tell me." Her eyes tear up.

"I didn't want you feel what I've had to feel."

She nods. "Well thanks. But this is a hundred times worse." She grabs her bag and walks to the door. Before she walks out, she flips us all off and says,"Thanks for dinner bitches." She walks out the door.

Everyone turns to look at me. I feel like shit. I get up to get away before the tears come. Without knowing it, I walk into Niall's room and sit on the bed. No one comes to check on me. I sit on the bed alone feeling like the worst best friend in the world. I literally have no one now. No boyfriend. No parents. No friends. I have Beth but she has Liam. I cry into the comforter on the bed and the loneliness set in, until I feel a hand on my shoulder.