Im Only Human

Apologies

Niall's POV

After Nat storms out of the house, Mckenzie stands and runs from the table. Then a door slams.

Lou stands and looks in the direction that she ran. "Um. Niall." He looks down at me. "I think she went into your room. Do you want me to see if she's alright?"

I almost tell him no. But I know she doesn't want to talk to me. She made it pretty clear to me today. We hardly talked and she only made eye contact once.

I remember the day she broke my heart. I had never felt so much pain. Emotionally and physically. And over a girl I had only met days before. It was stupid.

I laid in bed for weeks trying to call. I didn't eat. It just felt like this big weight was on my chest. Every time I thought of her tears came. I stayed up every night because I couldn't sleep. I tried to find a way to grab a hold of reality and get back on track but I couldn't find anything. Until Liam brought my school work home. On it was a note from the music teacher, Mrs. Shelly, telling me not to forget about my music project. It also said that we would have to preform it on stage. In front of the whole school.

That's when I finally figured out a way to talk to Mckenzie without really talking talk to her. I would a song to her. One that perfectly sums up how I feel about her.

I nod and Louis goes to my room to see if she is okay.

"You are an idiot." Zayn says. I look at him confused. "You know that girl wants your comfort. Even if she doesn't say it or act like it. She does." He stands up. "But you don't see it. You both are gonna drive me insane." He takes his plate to the kitchen while mumbling about how stupid I am.

Liam is glaring at Harry. He's pissed because Harry cheated on Nat and ruined his and Beth's night. I would be too.

Harry stands and goes to his room. He slams the door and screams. He knows he fucked up, which is good,bit he also knows he just ruined a friendship.

Beth apologizes for Mckenzie and Nat's behavior and goes off searching for her. I stand and start clearing dishes from the table. Beth and Louis walk in a few minutes later.

"She's beating herself up pretty badly." Lou says.

Beth sighs. "I think we're just gonna stay the night, if that's ok." I nod. "Go talk to her."

I look at her. She looks like she means what she says. Since everyone is telling me how stupid I am for not talking to her I decide to go and talk to her. I start to knock on the door but stop when I hear voices.

"Please Mckenzie. Listen to me. I did not mean for this to happen. I am trying to change for her. Old habits die hard. I've been trying since the day I met her." It's Harry. "Please," he begs. "Talk to her for me. I don't how else to make you understand. To make her understand." He's crying. "If anything tell her not to blame you for anything. I fucked up. I should be the one to blame not you. I don't want to be the cause of you and her not being friends anymore."

"It's ok Harry." She whispers. "I forgive you. And I will try to talk to her. But that can only happen if she talks to me and right now we are her favorite people in the world." She laughs.

"Thank you." He says. "And I'm so sorry for letting this happen."

"It's fine. Don't beat yourself up over it."

"I promise not to if you don't."

She laughs. "Deal."

Harry walks out and looks at me. His eyes are red and bloodshot. He has tear stains on his face and his hair disheveled. He wipes his tears away as he walks to room. He really is beating his self up I've this.

I wait a few minutes, debating on whether or not to go in. I finally decide to. I knock.

"Really! Can't people just leave me alone. I'm fi-" Her words stop as she looks at me.

"Can I come in?" I ask.

"No." She answers.

"Well it's my room."

"Then I'll go find somewhere else to mope around." She tries to walk past me out of the room.

I block her with my arm and shake my head. She glares at me. "Can we please talk?"

She shakes her head and looks down at the ground. "I don't want to talk to you. Please leave me alone."

"Please." I say again. She steps back into the room and sits on the edge of the bed.

I run through the things I've wanted to say to her and throw them all away. Just as I'm about to open my mouth Beth and Harry burst through the door.

"Mckenzie we have to go now." Beth says.

Harry walks over and grabs her by the wrists. "Why?" she asks. Harry pulls her away from me. Harry has a sad look in his eyes and his whole body is tense. He looks worried and he a good reason to be.

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