My Own Way

Epilogue

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Epilogue

Life had turned out differently than I imagined. I could see so much of my parents' character in my two brothers, A.J. being a police officer while Felix was a paramedic.

"I just want to help people." A.J. had said to me when I ask him why he wanted to be a cop a few weeks after he had graduated from High School. I gave him a hug then he added, "And you know what they say...women like a man in uniform." he said laughing a bit. After hitting him upside the head and saying, "Maybe for some it's partly true but a real man would never think of it that way, certainly if he would want to be taken seriously." I told him. Even though he was partly being honest, I knew nothing in the world would be able to distract him from being a cop. When he graduated from the Police Academy everyone was proud of him but mostly he was happy with himself which was the best part.

Today A.J. was still single but only by choice. He loved being available and loved women but would inform me that he was always being respectful towards them. I rolled my eyes in annoyance, I'm sure he was respectful...to an extent. I reminded myself that I could only say or do what I could. It wasn't my life, it wasn't mine to live and to simply mind my own business. My mother wasn't pleased with his... activities. She wished that he would settle down and become a loving husband and father. I always laughed at that because he still had a long way to go. My brother loved two things more than his women, his family and his job, if the woman he liked didn't understand in the slightest, she was out the door. Those two things, no one could mess with...those two priority made me the proudest.

My mother told Felix the truth years ago about our past with Jesse, he didn't take it well. It took a long time for him to somewhat understand it and move on from it. He found a career where he was happy and like A.J. he only wanted to help people. It amazed me how the past had affected them. For some reason, I couldn't believe how my brothers had turned out and why I hadn't noticed it before. I cried tears of joy when he told me he wanted to be a paramedic, also I probably cried being seven months pregnant with my second child and being very hormonal at the time.

Presently, Felix was happy and in love with the same woman, Kristen, for the past four years and her six year old daughter, Amelia. They were a really good fit and my brother loved both of them with everything he had. They were a little perfect family.

As for me, now two years later after Felix was a full time paramedic, I was pregnant with my third child. Even after many years I could clearly remember telling Blake about us having one child and we would see from there, but here we were with number three.

"How are you doing?" My doctor, Dr. Cale, asked me as she closed the door to her office, once we were inside.

"Well, my husband is late for our appointment, he thinks I'm going out of my mind which I'm sure he's somewhat correct. I want him to get...fixed that way, this..." I said pointing to my stomach, "won't happen again. I really do love my kids but three is where it stops. I feel ugly, fat and when I can actually sleep I have nightmares so I'm always tired." I quickly said, almost about to cry.

"Amanda you need to relax, I can see you're stressed." She told me.

"I'm trying but it's difficult when everyone is always telling me to relax. It's not something that is done on command."

"You're twenty-one weeks pregnant, go for a long relaxing massage...find time for yourself." She added.

"I got two kids...thank god one is in school but a massage is out of the question, certainly when the other one is running around everywhere." I informed her.