The Bucket List

prom queen

It's 3a.m.

I can't sleep.

I started crying hours ago and figured I could just cry myself to sleep, but it just never came to me.

I've been laying here for hours.

I decide to get up and have a shower.

I'm probably in need of one.

I don't know if it's the fact that I'm exhausted or the fact that I've been alone with my own thoughts for a long period of time, but something is telling me that I need him.

I can't. Not yet. But at the same time, I can. I will.

I don't know what I should believe anymore.

On one hand, he lied and cheated and hid it from me.

On the other hand, he's the most amazing person I have ever met and he didn't mean to do what he did.

I turn off the shower and dry myself off, changing back into my pyjamas.

I grab my phone because I notice a text message.

I can't stop thinking about you.

Go away.

Just think about what you're letting go.

I know what I'm letting go. And I don't care.

Look, I'm sorry.

I know.

I feel terrible.

Jack, you were an asshole.

You think I don't know that?

Kevin and I were happy.

He was also lying to you.

I honestly don't even care about that anymore.

I know you do.

I don't. I don't want to talk to you anymore. You were a douche bag and you ruined the rest of my entire life. I hope you know that.

Don't you think you're being a little dramatic?

No.

It occurs to me that Jack doesn't know.

You don't understand.

I understand completely.

No you don't. Trust me.

Then tell me. What am I missing?

I don't think you deserve to know.

Suit yourself.

I decide not to answer. At this point I'm even more tired than I was before.

I close my eyes and fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow.

•••
An announcement comes through the P.A system.

We will now announce the nominees for prom king and queen:

For prom King: Julian Davis, Kevin McAllister & Jack Anderson

For prom Queen: Emily Hill, Natasha Taylor & Morgan DeAngelis.

What?

Are they serious?

Why me?

Prom Queen? No fucking way.