Hidden Beast

26. The Confirmation

Ruby

Dad opened his arms for me and I thankfully slid into the warm open space and hugged him back.

I didn't let go as I explained all the weird feelings I had had lately, all connected to the Jasper Hamill boy that didn't seem to disappear out if my thoughts.

My dad listened paitently until I stopped and when I looked up to met his gaze I know he knew exactly what I was feeling.

I didn't say anything, just waiting for his final sentence that would confirm what I had denied and tried to push out of my thoughts for a long time now.

First Garnet looked just as a king as he thought everything over bit then he smiled softly and turned into my father that lived me with all his heart.

"Are you asking me what I think it is?" he asked me with a gentle smile. I nodded and pressed my face to his chest "If it is as I think it is I don't know what to do" I said with a pleading voice.

Actually I didn't need his confirmation, I already knew what it was I was feeling. The thing is I didn't know what to do about it.

I didn't know why is had hoped for him to say something else but it felt devastating when he confirmed what is already knew deep down.

"You're in love with him" he said and I nodded without looking at him.

"Jasper Hamill is your mate" he said and I nodded yet another time.

My father stroked my back "Oh my little wolf girl" he said and I felt tears prick my eyes. The familiar name was only reserved for me.

Jasper

After dinner that day I had returned to my room. I felt exhausted after the test and it hadn't only been physically hard but mentaly too and now I felt like sleeping all day.

Kaden nuzzled his snout into my lap and I began petting him. Sheila laid at the floor and tiredly assessed her puppy as it cuddled into her at her side.

The male cub had been growing a little and his coat was more clear now. He had white paws, stomach and the tip of the tail was also white. The white color followed around his face and ended in one white ear but left the other dark grey. The rest of him were in varying shades of grey and black.

I stared at the two wolves at the in front of me as I continued slowly stroking Kaden's head, deep in thoughts.

I wondered what Ruby was doing now?

What am I thinking! I'm not even calling her captain anymore I need to stop it! But how can I?

She's wonderful and there's no doubt about it. She's beautiful and incredibly intelligent, she probably thinks I'm a nervous wreck and shouldn't even be at the competition.

But she noticed I was one of the first to complete the test today, did she? She must have seen how fast I had been, what did she think of me? Did she even think of me? Probably not.

Unintentionally I sighed loudly and even Kaden looked up to me with concerned eyes. Damn him.

"But she doesn't even think about me. I'm just a student with a stupid love for my teacher" I said to Kaden.

He continued to stare at me "No way she would think the same, she would probably eliminate me right away and father wouldn't like that at all, you know that" I said to him but he just stared at me.

"I shouldn't even be thinking about her like this, why can't I stop thinking about her?" I asked him like he would have the answer.

Then I sighed hopelessly "I'm in love with her of course and there's nothing I can do about it" I realized.

I stopped petting him and he turned his head to the side, not breaking my gaze. "What can I do then? I can't exactly tell her anything, she would think I was mad. But I can't just do nothing, then I will go mad" I told him and continued when he didn't object, like he would to that.

"I need to see her more often than these trainings, they're not enough, besides she's talking to others then not just me" I said almost framing, why did this have to be so hard?

"So what do I do?" I asked him but of course he didn't answer. Instead he just walked over to his little sleeping family to lay down with them an I sighed.

A knock on the door made me look that way. I walked up and opened the door to see who was at the other side.

A guard stood there, stiff and dutiful. "Ready for your afternoon walk Sir Hamill?" the guard asked and I remembered how Ruby had fixed so the wolves could have more time outside.

Now the guards came after dinner everyday and followed me with the wolves to the forest behind the castle where other people wouldn't see the wolves as the castles inhabitants didn't like those 'Filthy Beasts'.

To me it's pretty incredible they hadn't been forced out to the dog stalls yet but I didn't complain.

I nodded to the guards "Yes I'm ready, let me get them first" I told him and closed the doors as I returned to the room.

I carefully picked up the little cub after waking up Sheila and then I walked out the rooms and nodded to the guards.

Other guards quickly fell into steps behind us as I followed the royal guards down some floors so we would arrive in the forest around the castle.

Maybe I would come up with an idea about how to handle my feelings about the royal captain?